I want a gentle man who doesn't yell when we're alone.
Who doesn't make me stay up crying, regretting that i picked up the damn phone.
Who doesn't blame me for everything wrong.
Who makes me feel like to him i am "home".
Who talks in the car instead of screaming at someone on the road.
Who says, "I'm leaving i miss my wife," when his friends stay up drinking at a bar.
Who proudly tells everyone about the love of his life instead of acting alone.
I want a man to make me laugh.
But who doesn't treat my feelings like a joke.
Who doesn't expect me to say sorry as we stare at the bottle that he just broke. Who doesn't make sex as an ending to every disagreement.
Who eases my nervous system.
Who makes me feel like i could be calm. Who loves loving.
Who loves me.
Who doesn't make me feel weak for loving him, too?
Who doesn't save showing love for later. I want to believe it works out with a man who, when he holds my face, makes me forget that i ever thought that heaven could only be a place, for heaven is in his arms.
Who loves so gently but so loudly.
Who takes the time to get to learn me because maybe even after everything. I am worthy of being known.
Gentle.
Calm.
Patient.
Kind.
Protective.
Understanding.
All of these qualities are the ones that come to mind.
Because i need a man who is kind but strong and can be there for me.
My shoulders hurt from carrying every single time that i have been wrong,
and maybe it isn't the weight that has to be shared.
But he allows me to put it down to rest. Until I'm healed enough to show him the scars nobody would ever have guessed.
I have so much love to give.
So much understanding, too.
But it feels like i am wrong to provide anything except what i am asked of, for i am too much.
