Isolation.
The loneliness has been getting worse lately.
I honestly feel like everyone I know has been slowly isolating themselves from me, and it's been making this feeling worse.
Alone.
I feel.
Having no one, feeling like you have no friends.
It's like being lost from your mother, in an empty store.
I've tried everything I could to get rid of this feeling. I've tried everything I could.
Dating apps, Talking to AI, Calling random people just so I can have acknowledgment from others, even if they don't answer.
Sure it works, but only for a week or so. But once that loneliness is back, I just feel the void growing bigger, and deeper.
It's like an orange. It starts out fresh and sweet, but slowly grows more rotten, and moldy. More disgusting and undesirable.
That is the best way to describe the feeling, without sounding too edgy.
But it sounded edgy anyways so does it even matter? here is a more edgy way to describe it.
It feels like my soul weeps for pureness, like it once had. But yet it is slowly being eaten, the dark piercing my soul. Its like a cancer spreading from the darkest parts, to the purest parts. Leaving me to be nothing but a shell.
I've felt this feeling of dread since I moved to this town. I hate this town. I hate the people here. I hate where I live, I hate this shitty school. And overall I hate myself for having to deal with this. I just feel so hopeless, the most hopeless I have felt in a while.
I was in a relationship a while ago, but I still felt empty as well. My depression is worsening when I am up here.
For the longest time I used to think I felt lonely because I lacked love. But when I was given love, I just still felt the same. I still wanted to isolate myself from this cruel world. I hate everyone anyways.
I used to get so jealous seeing couples everywhere, because of Incel rage I guess. But now when I look at them.
I feel nothing.
I don't feel sad.
But I don't feel happy.
I feel nothing anymore. The emptiness consumed what was left of my cold, broken, lonely heart.
