mind palace
now you got me stuck in my mind palace
i started to fear the indifference
frenzy with the changes, counting all the ages
deleting my existence the way i delete phone numbers
hesitant of handshakes and addressing my sense of self
watching all the corners in hope to find a hidden scheme
i would go and recall my words like an echo in between
whether if i say something that is sharp enough to cut the ties
or if the memories that i shared is the reason why you're up at night
and i will hear all the ticks from your bombs
that you hid in secret on my own treasure box
we throw in daggers and words we can never take back
long ago, we used to sit in comfort and whisper in the dark
it was days turned weeks, and weeks turned to grudges
in time, you'll drive and find yourself a beach
sit on the shore and by then, i will be out of reach
you might forget the details, you might thought that i've forgive
but the poems i wrote on the sand might be washed out by the waves
or our infamous chemistry made the love letter burn to ashes
— but it was never gone.
and so deep down, you will feel the emptiness that comes along with it
you'll lose track of time and the plans that you have derailed
you'll wonder and sit down and tell the story to your grandchild
what was left, what was gone and who was the antagonist
the world will move on, my feet glued on the ground
i will read all the book in search of the correct noun
it will take a lot of years until i finally stop
i will pick up my pen and pace down non stop
i might bleed, i might be wounded but my morale was intact
and if you thought this journey took me nowhere in the end
i can smile and look at you straight, in my defense
it might be dark, it might be crooked.
i might get lost, i might get wounded
but this pain, hasn't killed me yet.
and so i'll row down and shoot for the star
my bullets are words that are the most truthful so far
the sky will light up, you'll see my name somewhere
and if my pen's ink runs out one day
i'll use my blood and sweat and call it a day.
