Loving Wendy

eighteen

I missed him.

I look at JJ as he watch the morning news. His hair is longer now. Eversince he kissed me and asked me to be his girlfriend, he seemed to calm down.

We dated and watched movies. Being with him is ok. But its like something is missing. Im happy but not as happy as before.

Lately Ive been comparing him to Yonghwa and I know its not good.
Ive never spoken to him in a long while and I keep wondering where he is now.

Rein and Ji Hoo has become closer. I can see shes happy with him and I felt envious of that. I already have JJ, then why am I not happy? Why do I feel somethings missing?

I opened the door and sat down on the porch, I cant stop the sigh that escaped from my lips.

My eyes darted to the house on my right. Its so silent over there. I wonder if Yong is sleeping. They always finish work at ten and he must still be sleeping.

I got my cellphone and look if I got new message but theres none. Its been a month since I saw him and sent him the message. Maybe hes gotten an offer to record now. The last time I was with him, a man offered to manage his career and he said he will think about it.

" Wendy? "

I heard JJ calling from inside the house. I went inside and find him sitting on the sofa. He look at me and smiled. Then he pushed the remote and turned off the TV.

I sit next to him and he hold my hand.

" we need to talk." JJ said and Im wondering why he sound so serious.
" I noticed youre pre occupied lately..its about him isnt it? Did I come back too late?"

" what are you talking about JJ? " I ask him and he just smiled.

" Im sorry if my coming back has confused you Wendy..sometimes, Im just so selfish." He expelled his breath as if he was holding it for a long time. " Yoona left because we had a disagreement. I guess she wasnt happy about somethings that I have told her and I just assumed shed get over it." He smiled sadly and look at me. " Im doing that with you again."

" you need to talk JJ. I dont think Yoona hates you. She maybe mad right now but you have to talk about your differences. " I told him and he smiled.

" you got a good head between your shoulders Wendy. Im so sorry if Id become a burden to you with my hard headedness."

I hold JJ's hand and I smiled as I look at him. " you know what to do. Yoona is just waiting for you. Rein said shes with her sister right now."

JJ suddenly look at me concerned. " Im ok. You were right. I miss him. I need to explain to him. I just hope hes not mad at me"

JJ's phone suddenly light up. His face show surprise, then his grin appeared as he answer the phone.
" baby...Im sorry....I miss you.."

I stood up and went to my room to give him privacy. I decided to take matters in my hand.

I need to explain to Yonghwa.