All for you | Vkook

Part10

Taehyung's unwavering eyes followed the way Jeongguk's fingers tensed up as well his voice coming out airy.

An urge to be suppressed by the throat yet the voice forcing out to come out in a small whisper. "I..re-remember wondering if..why mom wasn't spending time with us.."  he swallowed back the lump in his throat, "I used to ask my dad a lot.. why she wasn't..with us-or why she doesn't come to pick me up from my junior school.." tilting his head sideways and flattening his lips down, "He said her interest is..more in forwarding her ca-career..than her family.. which isn't wrong… but..it hurted. Hurts, to know that she won't be spending time with me like before..but my dad said that wouldn't matter cause he would be there for me.."

Jeongguk moved his gaze down and softly murmured, "I used to think she doesn't favour me..or-I tried my best in school..hoping if she would also be present in my lifeㅡlike my..friend's parents used to...Whenever I would spend the whole day with them... it-it used to make me inferior..."

Taehyung watched as Jeongguk fisted his hands, fighting against the urge to pull his arms close to himself.

"Like I..was missing out something... however, on my birthdays-I did used to get presents...but most of the timeㅡboth of them had to-stay with their..own schedules , they weren't there...'' His voice started to tremble, "most of the time mom had to travel overseas for her production w-ork and dad had also started his own business...we no longer had that connection either," his voice dropped at the end. "Years, went on and I realise that-I..wasn't the problem..it was her who valued her work m-more than us..so I gave up too on trying to gain her attention..."  Jeongguk's jaw tightened, the skin around his mouth clenching as he eyed directly at the elder.

"Taehyung-I swear I had done my best...I really did, but if she still didn't thought through..maybe I didn't even mattered in the f-first place...And I'm not going to lieㅡor pretend that I hadn't stopped looking for her attention...o-nce it hit me, I stopped giving efforts...if-if she didn't..then why should I?" Regardless how hard the younger tried to keep a straight face, the way he bit down on his lip betrayed him, and so was the build up frustrated tears starting to make its presence known, and that all put a hold on resisting as Taehyung placed his hand over the ravenette's clenched one, circling his fist on the wrist, making him let out a shaky breath and try to keep his eyes off the elder..

Taehyung still refrained himself from speaking but he hoped his warmth would make it clear that whatever his mind was at-he wasn't alone.

Jeongguk blinked his eyes feverishly, eyes falling down at the way Taehyung's thumb brushed against the skin in soothing strokes, and he took another deep exhale.

Kim Taehyung was still listening to him, wasn't he....

"I.." Jeongguk took a shuddering breath, his voice low and shaky, "I-i started hanging..out with my classmates.. and-and..barely went back home that much, it wasn't a-also nice to be there and hear my parents arguing whenever she was at home.." slowly his lips twitched, "funny..isn't it? whenever we were out in the public..which-rarely happened in the first place-but," he gulped, "left them and me in the spotlights..to show what a perfect perfect family I was born into..whereas In reality only I knew how it was..." he softly shook his head and once again Taehyung found the doe eyes set on him as he listened to him intently, "But i had stopped caring about, and later on in highschool..I had hopes on leaving that-mansion..and go out of the country for college..It-it was the only way I could deal to that p-lace.."

"Then.." Taehyung couldn't help but to speak out his mind, the fact that in reality the younger had plans for leaving the country, "why..didn't you?"

Jeongguk's brows furrowed, eyes darting away in thought, and then looking at the elder again. "My..my dad didn't allow me.." he bit his lips, continuing, "when I consulted with him-denied..he didn't wanted me to go away, and-they way he said..made me realise that I wasn't the only person in the house affectedㅡjust like how growing up I only found him..he was also the one w-ho at least raised me.." Jeongguk trailed off, letting out a quiet chuckle and Taehyung's heart squeezed painfully at how his words made the younger's eyes shine with emotion, how Jeongguk couldn't quite look at him now.