To break and To fix.

pain and suspicion

Nobody's POV~

After that, Edward's mind raced with anger and confusion as he watched Jacob transform and run away. He couldn't believe what was happening. What happened! This was not how he expected his night to end, especially after spending the day with Bella. Things were going so well and that mutt just had to ruin it. Edward stood there for a moment, trying to process everything. "What just happened? Did that mutt really just imprint on me?...tch"

Edward shook his head, trying to clear his thoughts. He didn't want any of this, but for some ungodly reason, he couldn't shake the feeling that something wasn't right. That he did something terribly wrong....."bullshit". As he walked back to his car, he glanced up at the moon and sighed.

Jacob's POV~

meanwhile, I ran back to LA push, thankful that the others weren't phased right now. if they knew I imprinted on a vampire, god knows what they'd do to me.

"Fuck!" I screamed in his head. "What have I just done?" Then i ran deeper into the woods and didn't look back.

"What have I done? What the fuck have I done? Did I just imprint on a le-leech? On a fucking bloodsucking leech! Oh kill me. Someone just kill me now! Oh lord what have I done? The pack is going to hate me. They're going to murder me! What have I done?" Because of the imprint, even insulting Cullen took quite the effort.

I couldn't believe what I'd just done. What my wolf had just done!. Had I really just imprinted on a vampire? On Edward fucking Cullen? Did I really just imprint on the guy that took the love of my life away from me? How the-Why the fuck?

Fuck! Why does fate have to be such a bitch to me? What did I ever do to it? Was I so evil in my past life that I had to be punished like this? First I lose my mother, then I lose both my sisters, my father's broken too so in a way I lose him, then I become a wolf, I phase and it hurts and I'm fricken scared, then the only girl I've ever fallen in love with picks a damn bloodsucker and now I've imprinted on said bloodsucker. Why was life so fuckin unfair to me?

My thoughts were a mess as i made my way back to LA push. I couldn't believe what had happened, and i knew that it would change everything. I just hoped that the others wouldn't find out about my imprinting on Edward. I phased back into a human and I quietly made my way into my bedroom through the window and not caring about my nakedness from phasing, I dived my head into my pillow and begun sobbing. rejection hurt. it was excruciatingly painful for wolves. mentally and physically.

Everything didn't even make sense anymore. I knew that Edward would never return my newfound feelings that I did NOT want to have in the first place, and it was painful for me to know that. But i also knew that this was something i couldn't control. why on heaven ,earth and hell would my wolf just decide to pick a vampire as his mate. and a male at that! I'm not even gay!!

I cried myself to sleep, and when I woke up in the morning, I was already experiencing the painful symptoms of rejection that would slowly lead to my death "uuggh.. I feel like shit warmed over..."
It had only been a few hours since the imprint had happened, and i had already gone through several states of mind. The first had been shock. Shock had given way to denial, which was followed by anger. Anger transformed into sadness , which soon turned into acceptance, and acceptance had allowed my wolf to acknowledge love. And because of that acknowledgement, it hurt more because i knew the feelings will never be reciprocated.
I woke up feeling worse than he had in years. The pain of rejection was intense, and he knew that it would only get worse as time went on. I tried to push my feelings for Edward aside, but they were there, burning inside me like a wildfire. Hellfire even.

I forced myself to go about my normal routine even though it hurt to even stand. I made breakfast for myself and dad. and I made sure to leave early for school so he wouldn't see how haggard I looked.
I drove in my Volkswagen to school feeling like shit. I didn't take my rabbit because I knew, I just knew, there would be a good chance I'd fall off.
when i saw my friends and pack mates, i forced myself to act normal... like everything was okay.... I just hoped they'd buy it. I was a very good actor.

Nobody's POV ~

As the day went on, Jacob struggled to keep up appearances. His mind was consumed with thoughts of Edward and the imprinting, leaving him feeling empty and hollow. He tried to focus on schoolwork but found it difficult to concentrate.
at some point, quil and Seth started to suspect something was off but he brushed them off and continued faking like everything was fine. Though Quil and Seth, grew increasingly concerned about his well-being. They noticed he seemed distant and preoccupied, but Jacob dismissed their worries, insisting everything was fine.

If only they knew.