I Met Him At Amateur de Cafe (On Hold)

Chapter 5

Finn's POV

Bago pa mag bago ang isip niya ay pumasok na siya sa back door ng kusina. It's already 11 am at kanina pa bukas ang cafe. He called Young to asked him if he could open the cafe instead of him. Siya kasi talaga ang nag bubukas ng cafe, tutal ay sa itaas lang naman ng cafe siya nakatira. Pero dahil nga sa nakakahiyang pangyayari kagabi ay na isip niya na hayaan niya na muna na ang ibang staff niya ang mag bukas nang cafe.

Nahihiya pa din kasi siya sa nangyari sa kaniya ilang araw na din ang nakakalipas. A few days has already past but the intense pleasure he felt when he jerked with Arthur on his mind still lingered on him.

He can't believe he jerk himself just because of a Arthur's simple touch. It's just a light, skin to skin contact but it felt like his skin burned with intense heat. Hindi pa niya nararamdaman ang ganoon sa buong buhay niya kaya naman nalilito siya nang sobra. And of all people, bakit kay Arthur pa?

He's so embarassed, he didn't even have the guts to message Evie. He always text her every morning. Kinukumusta niya ito araw araw kahit na alam naman niya na bihira din itong mag reply sa kaniya. Minsan nga ay umaabot pa nang weeks bago ito maka reply sa mga messages niya. At first, nagtatampo pa siya dahil doon hanggang sa masanay na din siya. Sa pag daan nang panahon, na tanggap na niya na hindi kagaya ng ibang couple ang relasyon nila ni Evie.

Sobrang na gi guilty siya sa nagawa niya. It felt like he cheated on her. Is he sexually deprived because of their lack in intimacy? But they were never get the chance to be intimate, eventhough they were in a relationship. Hindi pa sila kailan man nakarating sa ganoong level ng relasyon. Not that they're not attracted with one another. Siguro ay dahil mas nauna silang naging mag kaibigan bago maging mag karelasyon. Tapos ay lagi pa itong wala. Wala din naman nag initiate sa kanila to step up their relationship. They kissed, yes, but touching? Wala siyang matandaan na dumating na sila sa ganoong level. Wala.

But with just a simple touch of their skin, there's a sudden urge in him to wrapped his arms around him and kiss him intensely.

Kaya naman siya na ang kusang umiwas dito. Wala itong kasalanan. Siya itong naging mahina sa tukso. But he remember every words that Arthur said last night. The way he whisper those words to him as if he felt the same reaction on his body.

I know what's going on with you...

His words, as if he's telling him that he knew what's happening on him that night. His words still affect him greatly. Hindi siya agad nakatulog nang gabing iyon.

Napapikit siya nang muli niyang maramdaman ang pag iinit nag mukha. Parang naririnig pa rin niya ang mga salitang iyon ni Arthur sa tainga niya. Just what the heck does he mean by that?  Does Arthur know how he affected him? Oh. That would be embarrassing. Ano pang mukha ang ihaharap niya dito?

As if Arthur was teasing him when he whispered those word to him. Para bang alam na alam nga nito ang naging reakyon nang katawan niya dito. That he was turned on by his touches. Yun naman ang totoo di ba?

Napaka hirap aminin nang katotohanang iyon kaya iiwas muna siya kay Arthur. Mahirap na at baka mas lalo pa niyang ikahiya ang sarili niya. Natatakot siya na baka maulit ulit ang nangyari nang gabing iyon.

It's just another day of him ignoring Arthur as if he's not there when he knew he's all other the cafe especially on the kitchen. Pero alam naman niya na hindi naman niya maiiwasan nang matagal si Arthur. It's impossible to avoid or ignore him because of the cafe. Alangan namang pabayaan niya ang cafe dahil lamang dito?

Nagdasal na lamang siya na sana ay wala ito sa kusina nang cafe kapag pumasok siya doon. Pero agad siyang napa buntung hininga nang ito agad ang bumungad sa kaniya pag ka pasok pa lang niya sa kusina.