You'll Never Stand Alone

Chapter 8

(1991-1992)

It had been a little over a month since Whitney had started filming for "The Bodyguard" along her co-star, Kevin. She soon discovered quite a few things about the movie industry, one being that it could be extremely slow and tedious. It was take hours, and sometimes even days to film a scene. Whitney would have to impatiently wait around the set for her actions to be called and filmed. And even while filming, it was extremely slow, as the right angles and shots had to be made. As a singer and performer, she was used to everything being quick, methodic, and felt out, so it took everything in her not to scream when three, four, or five takes had to be done. In addition, the schedule nearly killed her as she had to be on call by six in the morning in makeup and sometimes the same clothing as the day before. This did not bade very well, as the sleeping beauty was much more of a night owl and "came alive" after at least 11 am each day.

Kevin tried his best to be as accommodating and patient with her as he could. When she was afraid of trying to do something one way, he was always able to convince her that it didn't hurt to see what it would look like to do so. He was able to give her acting tips, especially when it came to their scenes. In the more action-filled, dramatic scenes, he encouraged her to find something that made her upset or afraid and channel it into her scenes. When she was able to do so, the scenes turned out much more believable. When Whitney wasn't sure about what she was doing, she always went to Kevin for advice and a confidence boost, which Kevin never minded giving her. Between takes, they always were able to keep it light, which Whitney appreciated Kevin's humor. Each day, she became more and more dependent upon him for all around support. For Kevin, he felt as if he needed to protect Whitney, outside of his movie role as her bodyguard. He knew that he had convinced her to be in the movie, and he wanted to let her know that he had no intentions of breaking his promise of being there for her every step of the way.

Whitney, however, was carrying around a secret. Quite a big secret. She had recently found out that she was pregnant with her first child. She was afraid, yet excited to know that she could would actually be carrying life inside of her as she had been desiring for years to do. She had only told her fiancé, Bobby Brown and her parents. Bobby was quite pleased to be fathering his fourth child. Her parents, however, were not pleased at the least bit. Cissy did not hide her disappointment in letting Whitney know that she should have waited until she was at least married to have a baby. On top of everything, she knew that her parents didn't care at all for Bobby and felt that she was "marrying down". Whitney knew that Bobby wasn't perfect; he was moody, unpredictable, irrational and immature. But he was the first person who loved her for her and not for who she was. They had another common thing, something that she tried to hide from as many people as she could. It was something that shamed her; however, she couldn't seem to resist the temptation that it strongly gave her. She lightly partook in drug use. It became a thing that she tried to escape the pressures and stress of being such a highly demanded star, but it was becoming more of a common use more than she cared to admit.

She thought about dropping out of the movie, but knew that too much work had been put into making it at this point, and figured that they would be finished shooting by the time she really started to show. Her parents urged her to tell the director within the next month and Whitney reluctantly agreed to do so.

On the set, Kevin noticed something different about her, but couldn't exactly decipher what exactly. When he asked her if she was alright, Whitney would quickly dismiss any concern, stating that she had a long night and couldn't sleep well, which was why she was a bit fatigued. Kevin wasn't sure if he believed it or not, but he had no choice but to go along with it.