Icelynn
I sat at the counter tapping my fingers on the plastic menu as I waited on Judah to pull up. It took me 36 hours before I reached out to him. Longest we'd ever been without speaking. I didn't reach out to a dream because I felt she felt just like Judah's brothers. As if he knew I was getting inside my head his white Mercedes Benz GLC 300 pulled into the lot. The diner was empty a hour and a half away from home is where I ended up.
"Damn baby." He said pulling me into his arms with my head in his neck I sighed. "I missed yo ass some crazy. Don't ever fucking scare me like that again." He grunted before basically pushing me into the booth sliding in next to me.
"Rough Judah." I murmured as he scoffed.
"Ohh you don't know how rough I want to be but I know you can't handle that so I'm controlling myself. Why in the fuck would you do that hmm ?" He bit into his bottom lip dark eyes looking me over swiftly before his eyes landed back on my own. "You could have told me what was up you know I would have handled that shit." He pulled his phone out.
"Look" he scrolled "no group chat. I know you not lying though because we definitely have a group chat mine just been deleted between you reading the messages and giving my brother the phone. I figured it was the latter so I logged into Gaza phone from iCloud. I saw the thread. I got the screenshots." He said as I sat quietly. I was feeling something I hadn't felt before and that was ashamed. I've always been made fun of but not by my people. For Judah brothers to clown me like that when they were always in my face bothered me but that wasn't what had me running it was them making fun of my Judah. He didn't deserve that. Judah is such a perfect human being. He smart books and streets. He's a hustler can sell anything was only here for a month and was running his own water boys team. Slanging water, Gatorade and candy over charging people but he was that raw he could do that. He'd long ago graduated to a bigger hustle but he didn't tell me much about that these days. He bought old ladies groceries. He paid daycare bills for the kids around the way. He just was a good man and his brothers painted him as a sociopath when truth is he watch me because it make me feel safe. Make him feel comfortable. He promised he'd always be there and he haven't lied yet. I promised to never leave him and that's why he's sitting here angry with me now.
"I'm sorry for breaking my promise." I said as he looked over at me. "I just don't want you to be held back by me." I said looking out the window. "I love you Judah." I said honestly.
"No more than I love you. You could never hold me back I swear to God. Yo Icelynn." He said turning towards me as I looked at him but couldn't hold his stare for long before looking back at him again.
"Yea." I whispered.
"Tell me baby..." he hardly used term of endearments when it came to me. I didn't feel the feeling one would probably feel when hearing things like baby, so when I asked why would he call me that he never used it again after explaining it to me I guess it didn't feel the same. However this time I knew what I was supposed to feel and it made me smile. "...what you want a nigga to do? How you want me to handle it?" He asked as I bit into my lip. I knew if I told him he'd for sure do whatever fell from my lips.
"I don't like your brothers and they don't like me. I don't want to be around them. I don't want you talking to them about me. I want you to separate the two." I said as he nodded.
"That's it?" He asked smirking as I nodded he laughed.
"I thought you was gone say kill them niggas." He said smirking shaking his head calling the waitress over as I stared at the side of his face. After ordering our food he looked over at me. "You my heart Icelynn you know that right. Like a night can't live without you girl. You can't run off on a nigga like that again." He said looking into my eyes. My vagina thumped. I love me some Judah.
"I said I'm sorry." I said softly looking off as he squeezed my thigh softly.
"I forgave you before you even realized you'd fucked up ma. I'll always forgive you." He said as the waitress sat out food down. I smiled big at the grits drowning in butter pouring a pile of sugar in them hardly mixing them I start shoving the boiling hot grits in my mouth and the spoon was snatched out my hand as I continued swallowing the hot grits in my mouth. Grabbing the toast I start smashing that shit.
"Ima kiss that mouth Icelynn." Judah said from next to me as I focused in realizing what I had done I felt bad. Looking over at him he held the straw in the cup of water up to my mouth as I swallowed the bread before sipping some water. He washed my mouth before leaning in pecking my lips. "Small bites for this little ass mouth girl." He pecked me again passing me the spoon back before snatching it back. "I can trust you?" He asked as I nodded my head he passed the spoon to me.
"Where you sleep last night?" He asked eating his food slowly I mimicked his movements before speeding up but not as fast as I was before.
"The bus." I said as he stared at me.
"How that work out for you?" He asked as I smirked.
"It didn't I got off here and called you." I said as he laughed. "Judah you my heart too." I said as he smirked kissing my forehead we went back to eating in a comfortable silence.
