STILL LOOKING FOR YOU

Chapter 24 - It's always worth it,in the end.

Vicky's pov
When I was lost everything I thought it was all over for me.even when I saw a glimpse of hope ,more darkness came,I was scared, afraid,lost.
Even when I believed God,I was still lost, confused,my mind was messed up .
You know God test's us ,let's things happen in our lives a for reason ,so don't blame God,I know it hurts but trust him it's all worth it at the end trust me.am so lucky to have such kind and loving people in my life , because of my situations.i finally got married to Nate and the wedding was a blast.
Three years later, Milan gave birth to her first child, since she was already married to John David other best friend. Abigail to had her first born child with David.Deborah got married too am really happy for her . Amelia finished her university and is preparing to get married,wow time flies ha .
Has for me am pregnant,am so happy I will become a mother soon .am now 7 months pregnant, today I decided to take lunch to Nate's office, because I just felt good today or was it too good.
" Hey sweetie,I can see you are working hard".
" Vicky,what are you doing here you shouldn't be moving when you are this pregnant",Nate said worriedly.
" Not even a greeting am disappointed, should I go".
" No,no it's not like that am happy you came to see me but am worried about you,and the child ".
" I know,I will be careful,I brought for you lunch ".
" Awww you shouldn't have ,I think am hungry now".
He came to sit beside me and opened the lunch box.
" It smells amazing,I think am in love".
" With me ,or the food ",I chuckled.
" With you of course,and did I mention you look pretty today ".
" Eat your food Nate ,I love you too ".
" What! I didn't hear you ".
" You heard me ".
Then he caressd me ,I blushed like always,then he chuckled.
His phone started ringing,so he picked it up.
Am so lucky,thank you Lord,if it wasn't for you I wouldn't have been here.and if I gave up and went into the world I wouldn't have had what I have.so I thank you my darling Jesus Christ I love you a whole lot.
Then for some reason I started feeling off,and rubbered my belly oh no.

Nate's pov
I was almost done with my call,I looked at Vicky who was smiling at me , thinking about something, probably me but then her face expression changed , oh no she said and looked at me ,I cut the call and rushed to her.
"Hey honey are you okay,you are sweating".
" Nate the baby is coming".
" What now ,you are only 7 months pregnant".
" I don't know but I can't hold we need to hurry".
We couldn't go ,to a far hospital,and this one was only a dentist hospital,but we had no choice.vicky was taken in another room and the nurses helped me help , deliver Vicky's,I mean our child after what seemed like hours Vicky finally made it through but.

Vicky's pov
I finally made it ,I was so tired but why didn't I hear any cry I opened my eyes to see what happening.
" Sweetie am so sorry,our girl couldn't make it",Nate said in a sad tone and placed the child in my hands.
I looked at her she was so beautiful,but lifeless it hurt me so much,I closed my eyes and began to cry .
They took the child in the mochary,nate and I went home I was so devastated,I just went straight to sleep.the next day the girls heard about it and came to see me .
" Ooh Vicky we are so sorry", Milan said,as she hugged me .I looked at her husband who was holding their one year old son,I felt kinda jealous of her.the next day my child was buried,it was just so painful,to watch it wasn't fair.
After the day for the burial a week later,on a Sunday we went to church and the preaching that the was preached touched my heart it made me realize something.if Hannah in the bible, Sarah and many other women who were barren ,for so long still kept there faith in God believing one day they would have a child.why I say that is because am barren to ,I couldn't bare a child anymore it really hurt me that I cried night and day,i started blaming God.but that's was the issue here , it's what our sisters in the bible went through even worse than me , that day I repented to God to forgive me.
And I kept on trusting him,and praying day and night so that he could bless me with a child.
Deborah got pregnant and gave birth to a beautiful baby girl,I was happy for her.
But the devil kept coming to push me to feel jealous,but I stood my ground on my solid rock I kept my faith in Jesus.
Then the devil said to me ,"you are in human flesh I , control human flesh,I am the winner give up already."
" Are you sure I said,go back to the tomb and find out who is the winner ".