Everything Led To This

Derek

I have to help him in some way, any way. And i honestly think that if he tried to live a little and study less he would be truly happy. I'm not saying his geekiness is not cute and all, but he has no life out of the books and Lilly... Not her anymore tho..
But he thinks that going from a long term relationship to another is the solution. Now it's that other library girl.
Dude is 20, just out of relationship, free from pressure of home so he should live a little, just a little.. Instead he is thinking about what he will do when he is 55, just job, family blabla... He is sometimes dense like that..

I was in my head as I held him close as he bawled his eyes on to my shirt. I don't think I have ever seen him cry like this, and it pains me. "Listen, I know it is hard right now. And I know it hurts like a bitch...But it will get easier, I promise..."

He pushed his trembling body away from me and looked at me with those puffy eyes. "How could you possibly know? You are a brick wall with zero emotions Derek."

Ouch....Not a very nice thing of your most important person to tell you.. He must have not realized what he was actually saying, his expression softened again. "I-i'm sorry, I didn't mean it like that."
"It's okay, i know you are hurting." I would lie if i said his words didn't sting a little. I don't want him thinking of me that way.

After few minutes we where in his bed all covered up. "So what is your plan now?" I turned to him. He was laying on his back and looking up at the ceiling.
"Well I'm going to tell Riley how I feel, and ask her out."
My stomach twisted "Dude.... I love you, but you are so fucking stupid." He was taken aback. I could see shock and slight defense forming on his face. "Just think about it. You are single for what? 45 minutes? And you are ready to hop on another girl and try to wife her up?"

"So what? Am I supposed to hop on and off girls like you? Searching for sexual validation?"
Little bitch..
"Wouldn't hurt."
"Might hurt.. Who knows how many sexually transmitted diseases you have.."
"Okaay! I see you are better now. Aall healed up, and ready to be a little bitch. So you don't need me no more." I sat in his bed, ready to get off and go to my side of the room.
" No, wait. I'm just messing with you. Lay back." He puled me back.
I took a sharp breath, his scent was everywhere around me. I felt that twist come back, it was confusing for me. I know I want him safe, but I know i cannot walk him through the life, and pick a girl for him.. Again with that twist. Stupid Lilly disturbed me too.

"So what should I do?" He softly whispered, right next to my neck. I don't think he is aware of what he is doing. He was playing with the rim of my shirt right above my.. I actually don't think he is ever aware. His ex surely did mention how dense he can get. He doesn't really have boundaries when it comes to touching people.. Loving family or something like that messed him up, he was hugged and kissed enough as a child... "Hm..? About?"
The comfort of his bed, and late hour was pulling me to sleep, and it was becoming harder and harder to concentrate. "Riley.. Should I confess?" He looked up, he was too close. I moved back a little.
"You should live s little.."
"I'm not going to become a man hoe."
"Maybe just try to be single for a little. Get to know yourself first. Who even are you when you are alone. Have you ever wonderd?"
He was quite, and that was enough for me to slip off..

"Can you let me go? I have morning classes."
He wiggled out of my reach and started getting ready. After a few words he was out the door and I was back in bed.

He is really getting on my nerves, he is such a great guy but he wants to bury himself in 'normal life' and if he lives just a little he will go to hell. That boy..
I have to help him a little, just push him in the right direction. But what is the right direction for him...?

I soon realisted that i cannot stay in bed for as long as i would like to, for I also have fucking classes.

"Hey my man, ready for this weekend and some new puss-puss." Richard wrapped his hands around my shoulders as we walked to class.
This disgusting man next to me is my best friend, more like my party friend. He is always down for whatever.
"Man you are more disgusting than I am. And we where out just two days ago. Do you never feel the need for rest?"
"My balls can go for days without rest." He winked at me. I gagged. "This party will be at Friday, at Anna's. And you know she has gorgeous house, and expensive drinks."
"How come she invited you?" Anna is headmasters daughter, so she is like a celebrity at this campus. I don't know her personally, but she actually seems like down on earth kind of girl, even considering all the fame she has. Harry helped her with some work last year and he said she was really nice and pleasant. His word....
"Well she didn't really. I mean she did, but she kind of gave me an easy condition."
He looked at me with pleading eyes. "She wants you there.."
"Me?"
"Yeah, she didn't tell me more. Just that I can come if i bring you along. And dude, we are going she has some hot ass friends."

In that moment we walked past the library and i saw a familiar head.
"You go along.. I will meet you there."
"Dude, you will be late." I ignored him and I went through the bushes and straight to the window, if somebody sees me I will get a good scolding. But I don't really care, i like to fuck with his studies whenever I get the chance.
I wanted to bang on the window but i stopped myself. Harry was next to that girl, he was looking at her with such joy in his eyes. I would say lust but I don't think he even knows how to look that way. he seems so happy, so pleased. He is looking at her like she is everything he ever wanted. My chest are thight I'm afraid she will hurt him the way Lilly did, I don't want him to cry like he did last night. I saw his expression changes his face got red, oh-ho he is thinking about something naughty. He noticed me, i showed him something, and he got up, told the girl something and left.

I waited for him at the entrance, I was late for class but I didn't really care. I get to chat with him.