Astrid Johnson, the newbie

part 1

⚠️TW: eating disorder, self-harm⚠️

italics like this are thoughts!

Astrid Johnson is a 27 year old firefighter at station 19. today is her first day.

Astrid's POV:
i wake up and realize it's my first day. i quickly get up and shower even though it's only 6:00 and my shift starts at 7:45. i still decide to shower so i can at least look half decent.
i finish my shower and it's now 6:30, i do my makeup and change into a hoodie to hide my scars and cuts, and shorts since its summer. i finish getting ready and eat an apple for breakfast since i can't keep a lot of food down recently which is not good since i'm going to be running into fires but this guy at the academy was an asshole and calling me fat all the time so i just went downhill from there.
i get out of my thoughts and realize it's now 7:23am so i quickly get my bag and head out the door to my car. its at 10 minute drive from my house to the firehouse, i start my car and drive to the firehouse. by the time i get there its 7:36 so i park my car in an empty spot and walk in.
?: hi! can i help you?
A: "umm hi, is this station 19?"
?: "yes it is." she smiles
A: "okay um i got assigned to this firehouse and today is my first day."
?: "oh my god i've been waiting to meet you ever since we got told you were getting assigned here! my name is Victoria Hughes, you can call me Vic." she smiles
A: "nice to meet you Victoria. my name is Astrid Johnson." i smile
V: "i love that name! why don't i show you to the locker room?"
A: "alright."
i follow closely behind her
V: "okay this is the locker room. this is your locker."
A: "okay thank you!" i open the locker and see my uniform. i put my bag inside and grab my uniform
V: "i'll let you change. the bathroom is right over there." she smiles
A: "thank you" i smile back
i walk to the bathroom and get into my uniform
V: "wanna go meet everyone?"
A: "sure!"
i follow her to the kitchen and see everyone about to sit down for breakfast
V: "guys this is Astrid. she's our new newbie!" she smiles
A: "hi" i say shyly
?: "hi! my name is Maya and i'm the captain, it's good to finally meet you!" she smiles
?: "i'm Travis!" he smiles and shakes my hand
?: "i'm Andy." she smiles lightly
?: "i'm Ben" she smiles
?: "i'm jack." he smiles and shakes my hand
A: "such gentlemen!" i laugh
M: "trust me when you get to know them they are crazy." she laughs
T: "we are not crazy!"
V: "bullshit." she laughs
An: "oh you guys are literally phsyco!"
B: "we are not."
A: "you guys already seem crazy." i laugh
V: "you wanna come eat? we have pancakes and bacon."
A: "i'm not super hungry but i'll sit with you!" i go sit down next to Maya and Victoria
T: "so Astrid, where are you from?"
A: "i'm from Arizona, but i moved to LA because i've always wanted to live here."
J: "i've always wanted to go to Arizona"
A: "it's not the best, well at least where i lived." i laugh
Jack goes to speak but the intercom goes off saying there's a cat stuck in a tree which is ladders job so i don't have to go anywhere.
M: "you sure you're not hungry? these pancakes are really good."
A: "maybe i'll try one."
i grab a plate and a pancake and put the pancake on my plate. i slowly cut it up and take a small bite.
A: "wow this is good." i laugh
M: "i thought you would like it"
i finish eating and clean my plate
A: "could you show me where the bathroom is?"
M: "yeah of course." she smiles
i follow closely behind her to the bathroom. we get to the bathroom and i go inside and into a stall and throw up my food. i quickly flush the toilet and rinse my face and walk out.
M: "ready to go back up?"
A: "yeah."
Maya and I walk down the hall and start going up the stairs
M: "i heard you throwing up, you okay?"
A: "yeah just a stomach ache.."
Maya and i continue walking up the stairs
M: "you can talk to me whenever." she smiles
A: "thanks" i smile back
we walk back into the kitchen and see that everyone is back.
M: "how was the call?"
T: "boring but that cat's okay at least" he shrugs
the intercom goes off and it's a house fire.
we all get into our gear and into the trucks and drive to the location.
*time skip back to the firehouse*
V: "how was your first fire?"
A: "it was pretty good!" you smile
M: "Astrid could i talk to you?"
A: "yeah what's up?
she starts walking so i follow behind her. we get to her office and she tells me to close the door.
M: "so i went through your file and it says here that you have an eating disorder, is that right?"
A: "uh yeah.."
M: "alright. no need to be ashamed. just wondering." she smiles
oh my god her smile is so pretty.
no no no i cant date my boss..
fuck why do i feel like this about her?

i snap out of my thoughts when i realize she was talking to me
M: "Astrid?"
A: "huh? what's up?"
M: "you okay? i was talking to you but you were zoned out."
A: "oh uh yeah I'm good." i smile
M: "you sure?"
A: "yeah your smile is pretty." i start to blush

shit did i just say that out loud?

M: "thanks" she smiles and starts to blush as well
A: "no problem." you smile
M: "alright you can go now."

i walk out of her office and go back up to the kitchen

V: "what did Maya want?"
A: "oh uh nothing."
V: "okay. wanna come play this new game we got?"
A: "yesss!"
after you finish playing the game everyone decides that we should all get some sleep whilst we can so we all go to bed.
for some reason i start getting urges to self-harm. i try to ignore them but they're keeping me awake. so i quickly grab my phone and go to the bathroom.

Vic's POV:
i wake up from the sound of someone walking. i open my eyes to see that it's Astrid. i follow her to the bathroom and lean against the sink trying not to make any sound. i hear her start to cry and i decide to go knock on the stall door and ask if she's okay.
V: "you okay?"
A: "yeah" she sniffles
V: "are you sure? i can hear you crying"
A: "yeah i'm fine." she walks out of the stall
and washes her hands
V: "you can talk to me, you know that right?"
A: "yeah of course." she smiles
V: "what's going on?"
A: "it- it's nothing i swear"
V: "alright." i look down and see blood on her hoodie and look back up to see her starting to cry again. i walk over to her and hug her
V: "do you wanna talk about it?"
A: "not really.. i'm sorry."
V: "don't be." i smile

Astrid's POV
i feel so embarrassed that Vic had to see that. i shake it off and walk back to bed and fall asleep.

word count 1306

A/N
sorry this isn't so good but if you're reading this, thanks for reading!!