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(Grover's POV) 

When we reach back to camp, my heart is still racing from the kiss. I've come to the conclusion that it must have just been in the heat of the moment.. right?

There's absolutely no way Percy could like me back. None. He'd be better off with Annabeth! Believe me. I'd do more harm than good.

The cool night breeze brushes against my skin. I breathe in deeply. Percy was dragged away from Annabeth about an hour ago.. She must really like him. Good for her. I'd say she has a pretty good chance...

I run my fingers through my messy, uncombed hair and slump down on the deck's railing. I'm back from the cyclopes' cave now, but somehow I'm just as miserable as I was before. at least now I don't have to be miserable in a wedding dress!

Because I don't have any of my clothes yet, Percy let me borrow some of his. It was really sweet of him. I can feel my face heat up slightly at the thought. whatever.. 

I bury my face in the sleeve of the hoodie, letting out a groan. It muffles it slightly.

What do I do about this? All of this? First, I embarrassed myself by giving Percy that stupid kiss before I left, then I embarrassed myself once again by kissing him in the cave. I'm such a fucking idiot!!

I can't just ignore it like I planned to before..

But what else can I do..? 

A part of me wonders if Percy could actually like me back, but I know that's not true. A guy like him? Liking a guy like me?? That's fairytale shit. Plus, he seems pretty close with Annabeth. I reach up to pick at my horns, which is quite painful, but is soothing in a way. I guess.

Annabeth and Percy would be a cute couple, but I can't help feeling jealous. They're good together. I wouldn't want to hold any of that back. It's selfish. How I'm feeling, what I did, everything. 

I feel a small bop on my head. Annoyed, I turn to see who it was. 

"Clarisse?" I question.

Clarisse raises an eyebrow. "What's wrong, goat boy?" 

I roll my eyes. "Don't call me that!" I say in one of those whisper-yells.

"You don't have to whisper. It's just us here." Clarisse nudges me.

"Alright then.. Whatever." I reply.

Clarisse nudges me once again. "I asked you what's wrong." I sigh.

"Nothing." I lie, shrugging and looking the other way, reaching up to pick at my horns again. Clarisse grabs my wrist.

"Grover." She sternly says, but I can sense a hint of concern in her voice. She passes me a bead bracelet, which I start fidgeting with. "I can tell you're not okay." Clarisse crosses her arms.

I mumble. "I'm fine. Really." It's another lie, but I don't want to burden her with any of this.

Clarisse sighs, peering up at the night sky. "Grover, tell me." She demands, although.. in a soft-ish way, which is quite weird, considering how Clarisse has treated me in the past. 

"I..." I start a sentence, which I plan to be another protest, but I decide to tell her. I hope I won't regret this. I fidget with the beads. "Umm..." It's hard to explain. To piece the words together about how I feel.

"Take your time.." Clarisse shrugs.

I take a deep breath. "Percy.. and I.. um.." I'm debating telling her.. Whatever. I'll do it. "We kissed in the cave." I look down at my feet and can feel my face heat up out of embarrassment. I hear Clarisse trying to muffle her laughs.

She snickers. "Mhm! (haha) T-that's great!" She says between wheezes. "Wha- what's the problem??" She asks, finally beginning to calm down.

I shoot her a glare which deems her silent. 

I take a few moments before I speak. "..I don't know.. I- I mean, I don't even know if what happened in the cave was real.. It-- um. It was probably in the heat of the moment." I mutter out. "I really like Percy. I really, really like Percy, okay? But he couldn't like me back. I know it." I say before burying my face in my hands and continuing. Clarisse puts a hand in my hair, rubbing my head softly.

"Him and Annabeth are really close-- and.. D-did you see the way she pulled him away when we got back? I mean if that isn't Proof that they like eachother then I don't know what is." I say, a few tears slipping from my eyes and staining the sweatshirt Percy lent to me.

I cry. "How could I be so stupid? To let this happen?" I feel like a child.

"Shh.." Clarisse comforts me, threading her fingers through my hair. "Hey, it's okay." Her voice is smooth and calming. I look up. She has a concerned look on her face.  

"I- I think you need to know what I was going to tell you before." Clarisse says, as if hesitating. "About.. what happened on the ship? Remember when I said that?"

"Mhm." I nod.

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Hi guys! I'm super proud of this chapter actually. Even though it is short, I think I made it more detailed than usual. would you guys want a bonus chapter in Clarisse's POV? Tell me if u want it. I've already started on Percy's chapter. I'll be able to update more often since spring break is coming up! Aah! so excited. Thank you all who have been supporting me! I really appreciate it all. you're all such little sweeties <333 If any of you have tips in the comments, I would love to hear them! ^w^