Where it all began

Chapter 4: crushing

While i'm trying to fit in i'm getting used to it the nation and culture but the worst is i started having a crush and i wrote this for him but never show it to him 

On the 28th of February 5 in the afternoon it was the first time that i stalked you on the internet scrolling my phone staring at your photos my biggest mistake is i even chatted you enough but then you replied to me i almost throw my phone up the ceiling at that time and think to myself on how can a girl like me make you fall out of line so we chatted and texted i've always wanted to spoke to you in person but it is my eyes who can only speak to you and your eyes looking back trying to figure it out we played the games and yet i'm the one you played everything and am i left with something or with nothing if you only knew the truth is that i wanted to be beside you every time it is weird but it will be alright my dear cause in this world that i'm living in its a whole dimension that i need to be fit in but then there was the time when i saw you again and that time it made my heart drop out of the line la la la oh oh la la ti da da da si fa fa fa so it goes i've learn something about you and this time there will be no seen tears in my bedroom which i always do and you told me that your deepest fear is being lonely my dear so let me help and wiped those tears so that you won't feel that pain of tears so here am i again looking at you back and forth and hoping that you will find out about how am i feeling about you cause in this world that i'm living in it's a shady clouds of hope but not until you came your an inspiration more than just a knight and shinning armour 

let's just say jameson was the one who thought me to this this all lyrics writing he is such a main influence in my life and i miss him very much every time but i realized that somewhere i will meet him again 

about this crush of mine he has the look but the attitude is a red flag as always and he started lossing interest to me i did the same i didn't do anything wrong maybe i expected to much from guys here because all of them are different very much