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-----------------------------------------------------------God I'm pathetic...I'm just laying in bed thinking how much I miss her... Even tho I know she hates me I hate her aswell I just miss the old kindhearted her now she just wants to ruin my Life... Sure I talked shit about her but I felt so goddamm guilty I send her a paragraph about how sorry I am even tho she never apoligisied for all the shit she did to me... I can't move on even after 3 year's of being quiet... she startet texting from her new friends phones to writtie shit to me. She also hasn't moved on... god this is pathetic... I just miss her she was my clossest friend... I don't like her in the romantik way tho. I have a girlfriend now and new way more supporting Friends! I only had one person that stayed and that's my bestfriend Zoey everyone left ecxept her... I owe her everything even my life... I hate my life nobody wants to talk to me unless I start the conversatiom... I was always the secound choice the back up friend... My family usues don't make things easier at all... Everyone knows how shitty both my parents are even my dad going to jail... But I still am living with my "mother"... God I hate this home, this City, this country... My parents made me hate everything here... I just want someone that get's me... I even fell like I'm annoying people by existing... God I've not commited sucide because I'm too lazy but I just am waiting for sittiotaten to come where I can finally die...
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I guess good bye...
