Love at The Last Beat (Emo oilrose story grr)

''J! J!?''

J was sorta limp, now.
..I guess I 'probably deserved' this too, huh.
J whispered, and refused to look at V.
V looked shocked at this. The way J suddenly went mute and the way J had said that worried her. If V'd heard her correct, you'd realize that you didn't think you deserved to be cared for...

V was still panicking, not knowing what to do. She sounded and looked extremely concerned and worried. Then she spoke:

" Please look at me. " V would look very worried now. V felt absolutely heartbroken when she saw her glazed over eyes. She seemed to have realized something and started to think.. this worried her even more.

V's eyes looked at you for a moment before she spoke

" Do you feel okay.. ? "

No, not exactly.
J quietly sighed.
..You shouldn't waste your time with me. It's one of the few things I don't deserve.

V's expression seemed to shift, like she had finally realized something.

" Can I ask you something? Do you honestly think of yourself so little, that you deserved being hurt? "

..What's a person like me got to deserve?

V seemed quiet right now. She wanted J to think logically, right now it seems like J wasn't thinking logically at all. She needed J to snap out of it. So she spoke again, her tone shifting now:

" How about I do what you did, and say you deserve nothing? Then does that make it true? "

J leaned her head back as her breathing began to slow. Her eyes grew heavy, with a gaze of pain.
Nothing sounds nice right about now..

V looked extremely worried, her breathing became shaky real quick, as she realized you were slowly getting worse.. she didn't know this, but you were probably losing consciousness..

" PLEASE, STAY WITH ME! "

V sounded desperate now, she didn't wanna let J go.. she tried propping J up against the back of the couch, this made the couch support J back as she sat. V held J's head up now with her hands, trying her best to keep you awake.

..It's funny, you know? After just living in this dread and thinking there was no way out, at the last second..
 I think I might've found love. One of my own, not forced at all.

V froze, did she really hear that last bit right? J said that you're thinking you might've found love... but.. did you mean her? she looked down into J's eyes now, she was still holding J up so she wouldn't fall.

" Did you..? "

V whispered, hoping she was still conscious enough to answer. It definitely seemed like she was implying that it might be her that J loves; after how much she has been caring for J..