Love at The Last Beat (Emo oilrose story grr)

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J's heartbeat began to plummet down, and now it was maybe 15 BPM.
..I love you, V. And I'm sorry.. That..
..You can't love me back..

V stayed silent for a moment. She was heartbroken from hearing her say that. 

she loved you too.. 

yet she was right. 

She couldn't love you back. She's lost the chance.

She looked down, she looked really sad now. her entire expression seemed to be one big frown now.

" Why do you think I couldn't love you back? "

V had suddenly spoken.. her voice sounded as if she was trying to stay calm through this. she sounded a bit worried now... she wanted to know the answer but didn't want to pressure you..

..You can't really love dead people, V.
And that just might be me pretty soon..

" WHAT? NO.. NO! "

V sounded absolutely devastated now. She didn't need to be a doctor to know her heartbeat was too slow, she was freaking out so much she grabbed J by the shoulders and shook J gently. trying to bring her back..

" YOU WONT DIE, SO STOP IT. YOU ARE NOT GOING TO GET TO DIE. YOU'RE GOING TO LIVE! AND YOU'RE GOING TO BE MY GIRLFRIEND; THATS MY ORDER. "

V sounded like she was just shouting out words to try and snap you out of your drowsiness.

J softly put her hand on V's cheek. V weakly and gently smiled at V.
..I love you, V. To the moon and back..
..I just.. I just need you to know that, despite our situation..

V's smile brightened up. she couldn't think straight, she felt happy and devastated at the same time. She also felt extremely worried and scared. she didn't want anything to happen to J. so she did her best to stay in a state of neutrality in her tone. she spoke up a few words though.

" I love you too.. but you're not dying right now. You hear me? "

she'd then start to check your heartbeat to make sure it was at least stable.

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It was anything but stable. There was one beat from her heart every 46 seconds.

V noticed that it was still very unstable and she had begun to panic. She was so desperate to try to get your heart beating at a normal pace, she began frantically shaking you gently.

" PLEASE WAKE UP, PLEASE FIGHT THIS. IM SORRY- "
V sounded like she didn't want to lose J here. Her words were starting to become less coherent as her mind began to race. she seemed to just be going through her thoughts without even realizing it.

J's body began growing limp, and her eyes began closing slowly, though J still smiled at V.

V's stomach sank seeing this, she started tearing up now. she didn't want to see this, to see her like this.. she just wanted you to make it out of this..

" PLEASE, PLEASE STAY WITH ME! "

V sounded desperate now, she began shaking her more aggressively now as the panic set in.. J could tell it was just a matter of time before she would start breaking down. J felt a sense of despair, knowing she'd be gone, and V'd be once again, left alone.






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{..J's eyes fully shut.}

V began to silently weep now. She had failed you. she couldn't stop it.. she couldn't save you.. you've died, right in her arms, and what was worse? V had that lingering thought. That she wasn't enough. Just wasn't enough to save J..