When people ask, "How are you?" And,"I say, just tired."
Tired of trying, coping, hoping.
Tired of plastering a smile on my face when people ask,
"Where's your smile?"
Tired of always being happy.
Tired of getting yelled at for any other emotion than happy.
Tired of not being able to be mad or angry, because when I am, I get told too not act that way, and that's no way to treat people.
Tired of getting told to advocate for yourself. But when I do, I get shot down because I get worked up, but that's human emotion. Then you ignore me and change the topic like it's nothing.
Tired of you telling me to cope with my feelings and that I can talk to you, when I know it's a lie. Because it ends in the same way, it always does, the talk on how to act and no more phone if I don't fix my Attitude.
Tired of crying silently in my room after we fight, and you go on how I am acting even when I'm in the other room.
Tired of going upstairs after school and you are asking,
"Why do you always shut down and go upstairs?" And me saying,
"I'm just tired"
Because it true.
Tired of trying to tell you how I feel.
Tired of Bottling up my emotions as a way of "coping".
Tired of hoping you'll understand when you NEVER DO.
So yeah, when people ask
"How are you?"
And I say, "I'm just tired."
(Even if I'm tired of saying that)
-Baylee Rose Rudnitzki ♡
YOU ARE READING
I need to be alone
PoetryThis is just a book with a collection of my poems. they will be published here and there. these are all my own original poems. Please don't copy, but feel free to take inspiration. The cover is mine made on canva, but the picture's are not. Credit...
