You're a Mystery // zm

Chapter 10

Piper's POV

I slammed the milk down on the counter and leaned against it with my hands. Deep breaths Piper, deep breaths. My chest was tightening as the air around me grew warmer. My head was spinning and an unsteady feeling grew in me. It was all too much. Leaving home thinking I could make it on my own, thinking that I could just fit in with these people.

I couldnt go to anyone.

There was only one person that would know what to do, who would say al the right things.

Mom.

But she couldnt be here could she?

I just needed to see her, to feel her. Just to know she's around me.

I exited the kitchen and walked down to my bedroom slamming the door behind me with a rumbling sound. I slid down the door and fell on the ground leaning my head on my knees.

I never knew what I wanted,  I never knew who I wanted or how I wanted things. To me it was all just a game that I never one. A stupid game of monopoly that never ended, but I was always comfortably sitting in last place.

I want to be back in America. I want to walk around my old town and I want to just be free. I want to only have to worry about seeing my ex boyfriend around town. I want to be with Jessica taking on the world together. I want to pig out at the fry shack down town and I want to get wasted at the local pub then walk down the busy roads to get home singing my favourite song. I had the boys here. The boys that barely knew me. I had Harry who meant a lot to me, and I had Zayn who I couldnt seem to shake off.

I sighed tilting my head.

My eyes fell on my suitcase under my bed. I got up on my knees and crawled over pulling it out and opening it. It was empty.

My eyes scanned over to my closet then back to the suitcase.

I got up scrambling to the closet and tore some clothes down and threw them at the suitcase. I ran to the bathroom grabbing my stuff out of it and tossing it in the suitcase before stuffing it all in and zipping it up. I picked it up and grabbed my purse throwing it over my shoulder before grabbing my phone. First I called my aunt.

"Hello." She answered.

"Hey It's Piper. I'm going home for a bit."

"Why? What's wrong? Want me to come over?" She asked.

"No it's fine, it's all sorted out. I'll be home in a week." I lied. None of it was sorted out, this was so random. It wasnt like me.

"Okay... I guess I'll see you when you get back." She said confused.

"Bye." I hung up and quickly called Jessica's cellphone number.

"Twice in two days? You must miss me huh?" She asked making me chuckle.

"I'm coming home." I said making her gasp.

"What? When? For how long?" She asked.

"Today, I'm gonna take the next plane out there, I dont know how long I'll be there." I said.

"Oh my god. Okay okay okay. You'll stay here, I'll see you tonight then?" She asked.

"Yup." I said smiling.

We talked on the phone for a bit longer, she wouldnt shut up. I hung the phone up finally and grabbed the money my dad had given me that was lying in my side table. He said to use it for an emergency. This was one. I stuffed the money in my wallet and threw it back in my bag. There was a heavy knock on the door and I sighed as I rolled my suitcase down the hall to the front door. I opened the door and Harry was leaning on the door frame smiling down at me. His eyes traveled to my suitcase and a worried look plastered on his soft face.

"Where are you going?" He whispered.

"Home." I said watching his eyes narrow.

"You're leaving?" He asked. "For how long?"

"I'm not sure, I'll be back soon." I said biting on the insides of my cheeks, nervous for some reason.

"Why? I'll come." He said stepping forward and dipping his head. I shook my head as his hand snaked around my waist. Harry and I always cuddled, his arm was normally always protectivly hung around me. But this right here, it felt different. It felt so needy on his end, but me, I didnt feel that it was right.

"No Harry." I whispered putting my hand on his chest. He sighed and he leaned his forehead on mine, his heavy breathing trickling on my face.

"Why not?" He whispered back.

"I need to go by myself. I just want to get away from it all." I said making him back up slightly so I could see his dark green eyes.

"What does this mean then for us?" He asked. Well we arent dating, there isnt really an us.

"Nothing. I'm just going on a well needed vacation okay?" I said making him smile slightly. He nodded and brought his lips to mine kissing me gently.

"Can I take you to the airport?" He mumbled into my lips. I broke contact shaking my head. I brushed the curls out of his face as his eyebrows scrunched together again.

"You'll get mobbed." I said sliding my thumb over his jaw line.

"Let me come. I want to help you in any way." He begged.

"I'll see you in a week okay." I whispered bringing my lips to his. He didnt really kiss back so I pulled away smiling slightly.

"I"m confused."

"Dont be." I said kissing his cheek. He finally let go of my waist and I picked my suitcase up walking out of the door and closing it behind me.

"Tell the boys I'll miss them and be back soon." I said making him nod. We exchanged small, awkward smiles before I turned around rolling the suitcase behind me.

Mine and Harry's conversation burned bright in my memory. The body language stung in my brain. He acted as if I was breaking up with him, even though we werent dating.

But saying goodbye to him was harder then I thought it would be. I'm only at the airport an hour away and I actually miss him.

But I cant help but think about Zayn and what he will think. He will think I'm a coward, that I went away because of him, because I slapped him. And part of it was true, I didnt like what I did and I didnt want to face the fact that I did it. But I know that wasnt me, none of this is anymore. They dont know the Piper I want them to know. And I need to go home to find her.

All this twisted fate worked out for me. I got to the airport and looked up at the board that had all the flights. There was one into New York that was boarding in 45 minutes. I quickly made my way across the airport clutching onto my wallet and passport.

The ticket wasnt that expensive, I had money left to buy a ticket back when I needed it.

I took a seat at one of the chairs in the boarding area and flicked through the pictures on my phone. I hadnt realized how different it really was here. It's hard to explain, the feeling of being alone and missing every single person back home. I know as soon as I step foot on that New York soil it'll all click in.

The plane finally started boarding and I grabbed my things before walking over to the gate. I handed my ticket to the girl and proceeded down the ramp that led into the airplane. I walked down the tight aisle passing families and couples before finding my seat. I put my carry on, on the floor below my seat and made my way over to the seat that I bought. I leaned back in the chair sighing and looked out the window. The sun was almost finished setting and I wondered how it looked on the roof. I have always wanted to do this, spontaneously by a plane ticket and go somewhere. Now I didnt know if it was worth it. In order to not feel alone, I was sitting on a plane alone.

Most people had boarded and we were taking off soon. I was started to get sleepy, I knew I'd sleep most of the ride. I leaned back in the chair and closed my eyes sighing. I heard someone stop in the aisle but I didnt look.

"Hi." The voice said quietly making me turn my head.