You're a Mystery // zm

Chapter 19

Piper’s POV

            And all of a sudden it was like the weight of all the world was lifted off my shoulders. To sound cliché, I floated down to my room on a cloud after that kiss. That kiss. It was all I could think about after it happened. I hated myself for not experiencing it earlier then that, for denying my feelings. It should be 100% clear now right? I hate to say it, but it’s not. The hurt is still there from Harry. The betrayal. I liked the kid, a lot. But he reminded me that the wall that I worked to build up so much, that I had broke down for him, it should have remained up. It reminded me that I should never open up to just anyone. And then it made me realize, how the hell was I going to open up to Zayn ever again if I was scared to be hurt.

            I paced in front of the door, breathing heavily and anxious. I took a deep breath and knocked on the door before stepping back an biting down on one of my nails. Moments later it opened and he appeared, surprised to see me.

“Piper.” Harry said shocked.

“Can I come in?” I asked.

“Yeah of course.” He said stepping aside and letting me in. I walked in keeping my arms crossed and starring around at my surrondings. I had never been in Harry’s before and it was nicer then I thought.

“What some tea?” He asked. I nodded biting down on my lip and he smiled, heading down the hall towards the kitchen. I followed him and starred around shocked. Once I got into the kitchen he had the kettle on the oven and was starring down at me. I awkwardly met his gaze and half smiled.

“So how are you?” I asked leaning on one of the counters making him smirk.

“why are you really here Piper? To yell at me?” He asked making me study his face.

“I want to yell at you. I want to yell, and kick and scream and punch. But I cant bring myself to.” I said quickly.

“And why’s that?” He asked.

“Because I’m hurt.” I said quietly watching his face turn into a frown. He took a step forward and I took a deep breath making him freeze.

“Just tell me what’s on your mind Piper.” He said stepping forward and brushing the hair off my shoulder making me shudder.

“I don’t want to.” I said shaking my head. He frowned and rubbed his thumb over my cheek making me furrow my brows.

“You can tell me anything.” He whispered.

“Would you stop doing that!?” I snapped making him step back, stuffing his hands in his pockets.

“Don’t touch me okay? Don’t touch me like everything is fine between us because it’s far from fine. This is all your fault.” I said making him nod.

“I know it is, and I regret every second of it. I want to be with you.” He said.

“I don’t mean our relationship Harry. I mean me and what I feel. For 10 years I built my wall up and up and up and you come along and I think that I finally have a good guy so I break that wall. I let you in and I let you see who I am and I let you be with me and I trust you and then you shatter that trust. You shattered me, and I’m glad you have to live with that because I hate you for it Harry.” I choked out, regretting it but feeling relief over me.

“So you did come here to yell at me.” He said raising his eyebrows, smirking slightly like the sly bastard he is.

“No. I came here for closure. I need and deserve that.”

“Well I hope you’re happy with Zayn.  I don’t see how it’ll work out if you’re both closed off.” He said crossing his arms.

“You’re just digging this hole deeper and deeper.” I said shaking my head appalled.

“you want to talk about who’s in the wrong here? What about you Piper?” He asked stepping forward.

“What about me?” I asked standing up.

“You played me and you know it. I thought you were bound to me and attached and wouldn’t screw with me but then  you went on vacation with Zayn and spent every minute with him and I knew the entire time you liked him but I believed that you liked me more but you didn’t.” He spat.

“don’t turn this around on me. Our entire relationship was a lie!” I yelled.

“So now it was a relationship?” He asked chuckling.

“Is everything okay?” A quiet voice asked stepping into the kitchen. It was Louis.

“Yeah just go back downstairs Lou.” Harry said looking over at him. Louis looked over at me and noticed how upset I was. He gave me an apologetic look and then left us. I looked back at Harry and furrowed my brows.

“You know what Harry.” I said quieter this time. “I thought it was you because you treated me like you appreciated  me a lot more but now I realize that I was blinded by your overwhelming nature. There’s just something that doesn’t click Harry and I don’t want you to hate me for it but it’s not right, it never was.” I said trying to keep calm as I said it. He just starred at me not blinking.

“Then its him isn’t it?” He asked looking like he was actually hurt by it. I didn’t say anything and there was a long pause.

“Who is it?” He yelled making me flinch.

“It’s always been Zayn. Always.” I whispered afraid to say it. He didn’t say anything to me he just starred down at me as the kettle began to whistle.

“Get out.” He said quietly.

“Harry.” I said tilting me head.

“Get out of my house.” He yelled losing his temper. I nodded and quickly went down to the door, slipping my shoes back on and running out to my car.

            I let the fight process through my mind on the drive home and I actually began crying. But then I came to the thought that I had finally admitted it and came to realization, it was Zayn.

            I knocked on the door, still slightly crying from the after math. The chain sounded and then the door unlocked, before he pulled it open standing there in his perfect beauty.

“Piper what’s wrong?” He asked worried.

“I’m sorry.” I said wiping under my eye.

“For what?” He asked stepping forward.

“For taking this long to tell you it’s you. Truth is I need a guy like you to keep me in order.” I mimicked his words making him smirk. He stepped forward again and put his hands around my waist pulling me in making me sigh of relief.

“I told Harry. It’s always been you Zayn I was just to blind to see it and I’m sorry.” I said looking up at him. He smiled a complete genuine smile and brought his forehead to mine and rubbed his nose against mine making me chuckle.

“We have now.” He said squeezing my hips making me giggle.

“Can I kiss you now?” He whispered.

“What are you waiting for?” I asked smiling. He brought his lips down to mine and inhaled sharply as I wrapped my arms around his neck, deepening the kiss. The feeling of electricity shot through me that I had been dying to feel again. His smile worked on mine as he kissed me hungrily. A heavy knock on the door startled me making us pull back from eachother. Zayn looked behind him and then back to me.

“It’s 11:00 pm, what is someone doing here?” I asked worried. He let go of me and headed to the door.