Why are we sitting here? We're helping her. Again? I mean,, yeah. I didn't see an issue at the time. Well there is a problem, she putting your life on hold again. We're supposed to be handling our own laundry right now. I know.. I'm sorry. I can't help it. I know, we will get through it, but we have to go. We can't spend all day here. I know we can't, but I don't want to just leave her here. She can't stay with us anymore anyway, they already said she needs to be gone. I know. I don't know how to do this. She's our mom. She's your mom,, I am done with the entire family. I can't handle it anymore and I want us to be able to focus on our life not someone else's . I know but- No, no you don't but that's okay. You are getting overshadowed because you love her, because you care. I don't , I'm done caring about all these people who keep messing up our lives, and keep holding us back from the things we need to do. Even if it is something as simple as laundry today. Simple? " She's breaking us,, no one gives a fuck about us but we get to continue being the bad guy in every scenario. Can't tell her no without being a bad kid, can't tell them no without being a bad roommate/boyfriend. " We're never going to be enough for anyone, are we? I'm sorry,, you're doing your best to be a good person but they just keep dragging you until you hurt. I know the feeling trust me. Can't we just run away?? No,, we have to stay. Why!? Because you'll be miserable on your own, you'll let the thoughts consume you. Or maybe I won't! Maybe I'll get better because I can focus on myself remember. I know, we can think about it. We can weigh all the pros and cons. Okay.. we will figure it out together? Yes, of course we will. I'm so tired. I know..
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Rae?
Non-FictionWelcome, to my head. The way I think, the way I talk to myself, see the World, move.. Everything I say here will be my own thoughts, my own opinions. I need to keep it real somewhere,,