Before I Speak

Chapter 4

 Chapter 4

:Miya

"Sasaki-" I let out breathlessly as he nuzzled into my ear. 

My back was pressed into his chest as I sat between his legs his arms around me. 

"Sasaki..." I shivered again when his teeth grazed my ear lobe. 

"Miyako" My head dropped back against his chest in utter defeat. He had to be aware of his voice. "Lets be each others comfort" His voice wrapped around me and made me light headed. 

Blinking in shock I managed to get myself to face him. "What?" I let out in bewilderment. 

"I said, lets me each others comfort" His hand caressed my cheek and ran through my hair as he lifted a strand to his nose and inhaled, the  dark strand draped over his pale fingers like ink. "It isn't that bad of a request." His hazel eyes locked onto mine as he spoke. 

"What are you-" I ducked my head looking away from his captivating gaze. "Sasaki you dont want me" I whispered in a raw voice. 

There was no way he wanted me, no one did.

Soon as the words left my mouth I grunted in shock when he lightly pushed me back and I flopped onto the couch with him propped over me hands placed on either side of my head, him propped up over me. "Why wouldn't I?" 

I snorted from under him fully aware of how we had fallen his  leg between mine hips practically pressed together as he leaned in, "I mean look at me" I let out , as I spoke my voice broke. 

My broken heart ached in my chest painfully like shards of glass pushed against it with every heavy beat.

"I am" he stated eyes roaming down between us. "I see a beautiful and desirable women before me" his hot breath fanned into the hallow of my neck. 

Every inch of me was on fire as my heart hammered hard. My neck, was sensitive to his gentle advances. "I am no-"

His teeth gently tested the flesh of my neck and I gasped when he latched on and sucked gently, before flicking his tongue over the now sensitive spot. "Breathtaking,"

My hands hesitantly gripped his hips loosely as tears swelled. How as I? I was no beauty, no treasure. Ren looked over me everyone looked over me. 

His hand cupped my cheek as his lips found mine in a heated kiss as his tongue seeked entrance and groaned softly when I gave into the sensation and welcomed the advance my hands gripping more firmly as the tears fell. Pulling away from me I panted softly as he brushed the tears from my eyes. "You dont like me,  I know that. But you can grow to" he let out softly. "And I you" 

I blinked as his words sank in. 

"Let me be your comfort and I yours in this lonely world" I shivered at his words as his fingers slipped into my hair and pulled me to him for another searing kiss. "Let us try and speak with something other then words" he whispered against my lips. 

Other then words... I shivered when his weight dropped into mine, as his hand gripped my thigh his arm hands searing my exposed skin.  Actions not words. I didn't realize it at this time but-he knew me well enough to know if I left it to words it would take forever. 

"Yes"

He smiled against my lips and sighed. 

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"Your not leaving are you" I muttered as he held me to him. 

"Not tonight" he yawned softly into my ear as his arms held me to his chest tighter. "To late" 

My eyes flickered to the clock beside the bed. "I-we can at least lay down you know." I muttered as he pulled the blanket closer around me.