Love Wins

I love him

Ryder is basically my whole world. The other day I got my first tattoo and it was Ryder's initials and that was on my ass and Ryder got the same. I know it's going to be there forever but that's how much I love Ryder.

I went back to live with my parents and they are forcing me to quit smoking which I am but I guess they are doing it for my own good. They finally accepted Ryder and I which I guess is a good thing because he's always at my house now and were always cuddling together to. Ryder is quitting smoking too. just for me ain't he sweet. I just love that boy so much. Lately we've had a bunch of sex. Ain't it great i mean it's not like female to male sex. It's better. it's more heated and we don't give a fuck because we can get knocked up. It's great.

I defiantly have strong feelings for him and they won't ever change. I haven't told my parents about my tattoo yet and I don't plan on it. Ryder and I are going to a party tonight at Savannah's house. She's sort of a slut so Ryder and I should have fun. Plus who ever does the most Jell-O shots wins 50 bucks. Can't beat that so by tomorrow morning I will be wasted. Haha. I have fun being a rebellious teenager. It's defiantly a lot of fun.

My dad is going back on your and he's leaving this afternoon which means I don't have to deal with his shit. He's been in a pissy mood ever since I came out. But honestly I don't care. I love Ryder and that's all that matters.