Break The Spell - Hajime Iwaizumi X Reader

Chapter 3.

I was lost in thought as I heard yelling around me. "Look out!!" I looked up just in time to catch the volleyball coming towards my head. The crowd gaped at me. I looked around, then looked down at the court. Tooru was grinning up at me. I smirked down at Iwaizumi. "Was this yours?" He stared at me shockingly, arms up in the air as if he was trying to block the ball. "Next time, pay attention brother!!" I yelled towards the court, forcefully spiking the ball at my twin. "Oi! Sorry (Y/N)!!" Tendo yelled up towards me. I smiled down at the red head. "It's no problem Tendo." I glared at Semi. His eyes seemed to match my annoyance. He's mad at me. I get it. But grow up and don't take it out on my brother's team. The whistle blew, signaling for the teams to start up once more. I sighed trying to show my support for my brother but at the same time, I couldn't get into the game anymore. There's all this tension now. I sighed as I looked back at the court trying to focus on the game.

End of game. We lost to Shiratorizawa. Again. I felt my chest tighten looking at my brother's deflated figure. He looks so defeated, so tired. I just wanted to run out there and hug him. He gives everything he has to each practice, each game. All he wanted was to finally go to nationals. I know they'll get another chance but..that doesn't mean this defeat hurts any less.

I made my way down to the court, staying by the door awaiting my brother. Shiratorizawa exited the court first. Of course I ignored them as they passed but he just needed to say something. "See you later?" He asked with a tone. I glared at Semi, moving my eyes back to Tooru. "No. I think I'm good. Tooru needs me.." He scoffed as he grabbed my wrist. "What is with you!? Why don't you wanna be with me anymore!" I tried to push him away from me but his anger took the better of him. His grip got tighter as I slapped him. "Get the fuck off of me. Now Semi!" He looked at me angrily, his cheek now reddening. "Hey! She said to back off dude!" I heard Iwa say as he rushed over, Tooru behind him. Iwa forcefully pushed Semi off of me, getting in his face, screaming.

Suddenly, a wave of embarrassment and sadness passed through me as I watched Iwa and Semi share disputing words towards each other. Tooru was trying to drag Iwa to the side to cool off. This is too much. I need to stop this! Angrily, I pushed myself between the two men, glaring at them. "That's enough!" I screamed. Iwa looked taken aback while Semi got more annoyed. "You need to choose now (Y/N)! Me or this asshole!?" I rolled my eyes. "You know what Semi? I choose me. How's that? Me and Iwa were never a thing! I told you so many times that I do not want a boyfriend. I told you what we had would be as far as I go! You agreed to this and I'm sorry. I'm so sorry that I fucked with your emotions and your feelings. I'm so sorry that I'm so fucking damaged and can't give you what you want. I can't love you the way you love me. I'm just..I'm sorry ok? But this is over. I need time to myself. This just isn't working anymore.."

I couldn't even look at him. I shoved my hands in my pockets, head hung low as I walked out of the arena. I cared about Semi. But I couldn't love him. I never should've agreed to this. I ruin everything no matter what.

Why am I so fucked up?