orchid

chapter : 9

I am discharged from the hospital.
The hospital made me healthy.
The doctors and nurses were really good. I saw Singto thrice a day during meal. He didn’t talk much. Only scolded me when I refused to eat much. It felt good to have warm food.

Aunt maprang cried holding me everyday - she was cursing herself for not being a good attentive mother.
But I said it was fine now.

Actually I didn’t want to be the centre of attention. They will again get busy with Zeze and her baby. I will be alone again. It hurts to be left alone. That's why I have decided not to let my hope up with them.

I am just an entertainer, nothing else.
She is the wife.

I have been reminding myself.
No need to feel attached but this dumb heart doesn’t understand.
It just wants to be caressed.
To feel warmness.

After coming with Cam, I went to my room. I saw Sun doing dishes.
Which is unusual sight.
She doesn’t do that.
Mostly I clean up.
After eating some rice, I went towards my little vegetable garden.
I saw uncle watering the plants.

"Hello uncle.."
He nodded "How are you now? i heard you were in hospital."
"Yes.. I got sick. But now It's all good."
I said smiling.
We both started working on our plants. Uncle again came with a rice ball in his hand.
I happily ate it.
This riceball has helped me surviving.

We were roasting some potato near the lake. 
At that time, we heard some footsteps crunching through the plants.
I panicked and ran towards my radishes. I got furious at the two guards, "are you blind? can't you see those plants? now what will I eat?"
They got frightened at my outburst.

They were looking behind me with fear. At first i didn’t notice who was there. But when i looked i got numb.
Singto.
What was he doing here?
He should be with Zeze now.

"What did you say?"
I was startled with his deep voice.
"I...I said not to stand on the plants"
He took me in his arms in bridal style and started walking from there.

When we reached my condo, i saw Sun sobbing on her knees outside.
I wanted ask her what was happening but Singto took me inside.

He didn’t even let me utter a single word, he put me on the bath tub and started washing me. I didn’t want to argue, I was way too tired for that.

He gave me the bathrobe to wear.
When I came out of the room, i felt something was different. The whole room felt clean. And a smell of rose was lingering in the air.
I looked around, my eyes spotted those pink roses in the vase. A smile immediately came to my lips.

I was so engorged in smelling them that I didn’t notice Singto in the room.

"Are you these much happy?"
I looked at him, he was looking tired. He lost weight, i think.
I nodded.

He just starred, but his eyes was telling something.
Sadness? Maybe I am wrong.
He motioned me with his hand to come forward. I took slow steps as my stomach was now big.
I wasn’t fast as before.

He pulled the chair for me and opened the dishes. It was a lot I couldn’t even finish.
He fed me until i felt like vomiting.

"I can't.. No more please.."
He tried to feed me few more spoons but then stopped.
"Ok.." he called for the maids to clean the rest of them.

"Stop"
Singto looked at me questioningly
"Just put them in the freeze"
"Why"
"I could eat them at night"

Everyone stilled. Looking at me like i am some alien.
Singto looked angry.
I don’t know why.
"Why will you eat those?"
Maybe he had other ideas with them.
"It's ok. Take them. I can have anything else."
I didn’t want to drag it.
Singto gripped my hand,
"Krist, answer me"
"There is nothing else in the pantry. But it’s ok, i will have sweet potatoes with uncle"
He stormed out from there.
I really don’t get this person.