Frozen heart

Chapter 6 (Special Loki Pov)

Y/n left about an hour ago. I'm sat outside the house, just swinging slowly on the porch swing.

Why doesn't Y/n understand my feelings? Why don't I understand my feelings?

I know I care for her, I'm sure of that. But why? She's beautiful, she's kind (well, when she's not cursing me out.) and she understands me. Being judged on how we look; it's a universal feeling, unfortunately. But I shouldn't, what would my family think of me then? They already see me as a laughingstock, why add on a romance with a mortal?

But on the flip side, why would it matter if I'm already a disappointment to them? They won't change their mind about me anyways, so perhaps it would be worth it.

Maybe she's worth it.

I kick my feet against the ground again, making the still swing start to sway again. The creaking of the chains is like a metronome of my very own love song. Is that poetic? Maybe. Do I fucking care? No.
I only care about her in this moment.

But does she hate me? Does she even like my nicknames? Perhaps my advances come off as rude, or antagonistic. I need to let her know I actually love her, so maybe she'll give me a sign.

I have heard of a mortal site called 'Google', maybe it can assist in my search for answers. I'm pretty sure a library or archive would not have this sort of information in its supply. I stand up, my feet hitting the wood. I hate having to turn my skin the deathly pale peach that Midgardians view as normal, but it's necessary to hide who I am.

Once I step inside the house, I allow myself to go blue again, and I walk over to Thor's cellular device. I usually pick up technology quite quick, so I pick up the Device, pressing a button on the side, and it lights up. There's images, words and numbers on what looks like a glowing picture. I tap the picture, and the little technology asks for a password? There are only number options. After about 2 seconds of thought, I tap in 000000. Thor is a simple man when it comes to his tech. The image changes, and it brings up tiny squares of "apps".

I click on the 'google' square, and it brings me to a searching bar with a keyboard. Okay, so we don't speak as we search... I locat each letter carefully, and type in 'How to flirt with someone so they think that you are kind'.

Don't judge me. I'm desperate.

Hundreds of links show up immediately, and I browse them. I don't know how long I'm looking through them before I hear someone clearing their throat behind me, making me jump and drop the cellular device.

I turn around to see Thor behind me with his arms crossed. "Loki, what are you looking at on my phone?"

Fuck.

"Uhhhh.... Porn?" I say quickly, trying to get him to stop asking questions. But he just picks up his phone and shakes his head, looking at the screen.

He bust out into laughter. Rib crunching, bellowing, roaring, hysterical laughter.
Once he finally calms down, he wipes away a twar*
"Oh my gods, you're googling how to talk to a woman? Loki, have you lost your touch?"

My face turns a bright shade of lavender. "No! Of course not! It's- uh-"

"Who is it" Thor asks.

"What?"

"Who is it you're trying to impress? I'm not dumb, Loki." Thor deadpans.

"I beg to differ." I sneer.

"Just tell me."

"It's... well-" I pause. I never trust my feelings with anyone, not even myself, but Thor is my brother from another mother, so I have to tell him.
"It's Y/n"

"Y/n?! You've known her for like a month! Max!" Thor slams his phone down on the table, shaking it a little, but I don't flinch. "She, like, hates you! She thinks you're an asshole! Not to burst your bubble, brother."

I sigh. I knew a time like this was going to arrive, and I'm kick myself for not preparing for it.
"I know, but shit, I just want her to like me, I don't know why, I just do!"

Thor smiles at me, and laughs a little. "Oh? Is my brother from another mother, in love?"
My cheeks burn even more, and I'm pretty sure my blue skin has turned almost entirely purple at this point.

I don't say anything. What else can I say at this point in my case?

"Well, you're not going to get the answers to how to flirt in my phone, okay? I got you, women love me." He assures me.

"THEY REALLY DONT!" Jane yells from the other room, and I have to fight daemons to not burst into laughter.

Thor yells back "Don't make a liar out of me, babe!" He looks back at me.
"Don't listen to her, I give great advice."

I roll my eyes. "I really don't want to have you be my dating coach. I can do it on my own."

"Oh, is that why you were googling how to flirt?" He chuckles as I punch him lightly.

"Just... Just don't ruin my relationship with her."

"Say please, Loki." Thor crosses his arms over his chest.

"This is all you're getting. Help me or I'm going to delete rob zombie off your phone."

He sighs and takes me by my arm, dragging me off to where Jane is.
"Jane's helping!"

I'm going to regret this.