Jealousy. I can't spell it. Nor can I feel it. I'm broken in that way. I have never been jealous. I feel envy, desperation, desire, need, want, disappointment, sadness, but no jealousy. I always thought jealousy was outrageous selfishness. It is. It's a form of greed that eats you up and throws violence. My friend felt jealous of my hair and was so angry I can't understand that. I would simply be a little disappointed that my hair didn't look like that but I would move on. Not only is is like greed it's like a depression. It mindlessly takes over your body for extended periods of time, sometimes minutes, hours or even days, someone could spend their whole life fuelled by jealousy. I can't. I learned that I can't feel jealous about someone else if they aren't me if they were, then I wouldn't be me and it would be them. You have to be yourself and flourish in you not others. I'm not saying don't compare yourself, sometimes that sets goals. Just stop trying to be them with your hair or body or fashion.I never understand teens. I am one. they're ridiculous. they always think about judgement, they're self conscious.
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