taylor pov:
As much as I love having days off where I'm not singing or working, it does get lonely. Today Travis is at football practice and I'm home alone. Well, not alone, if you count the three cats swarming me. I had just woken up and they were apparently very hungry this morning.
I reached for my phone when I saw the time and realized how late I had slept in. It was almost 9am... no wonder the cats were so annoyed at me. I practically sprung out of bed to give them their breakfast so they calm down.
As I make my way back to my bedroom, I start to ponder all the things I could do today. Travis won't be home until 5, so I have the whole day to myself. I decide to lay back down and appreciate my time alone while I have it... maybe i'll be productive later.
I'm laying down scrolling through Instagram when suddenly I see a familiar face on my screen.
It's Joe.
Anddd his... new girlfriend? Maybe?
I keep scrolling on until I eventually decide I should probably get something worth while done today. I make my to-do list for the day and get started on it after making the bed and getting myself ready.
As the day goes on, I can't help but think of it. That damn instagram post. I know I shouldn't care. I have Travis. But I can't help but wonder what could've been. What would've happened if we never broke up?
When my thoughts begin to spiral, I go back to my bed to take a break and realize just how quickly the day had disappeared. It was already 4:30, but Travis will be home soon so maybe he will cheer me up.
As I listen to the clock tick from the corner of my room, I feel it. A tear falling from my eye and onto the pillow. Why the hell am I so upset about Joe? I should be happy. I'm with someone who loves me. And who I love. So why was I so upset?
I know it's getting closer and closer to the time Travis usually gets home, so I quickly walk to the bathroom and start to wipe my face when I glance over at the pillow I had just cried into.
That's when I realized something I wish I hadn't. That was Joe's pillow. He used to sleep there.
The pillowcase was very obviously wet, and since I didn't really want to look at it anymore anyway, I decide to put it in the washer.
The washer, with only a pillowcase in it, begins to spin when I hear the doorbell.
Travis.
As I walk to the front door to let him in, I stop at the guest bathroom to make sure I look ok. I mean, I don't necessarily look amazing, but it was too late to fix anything now.
I swing the front door open and Travis greets me with a hug. When I finally pull away, I flash him a fake smile and ask him how his day was.
"How was your dayyy? It felt like you were gone sooo long. It gets so boring being here alone."
"It was good. Are you ok? You seem upset."
I know I can't tell him. No new boyfriend wants to hear about an ex. I know that, from experience of course.
"Yeah I'm good. It's just been so lonely with no one here all day."
He gives me a suspicious look but nods in understanding before making his way into the kitchen.
Travis obviously sees right through my lie but i'm grateful when he just brushes it off and starts to make us dinner.
Since Travis is in the kitchen making food for the two of us, I decide to go upstairs and give the cats their food too. I'm finishing up pouring the cats their meals when I hear Travis call my name from downstairs.
"Tay!?!"
"Hold on, I'm coming down in a second."
As I reach the bottom step, Travis walks over to me. He's holding something but I'm not quite sure what.
"Why did you wash one pillowcase..?"
Shit. The washer must've just finished and he must've gone to change the laundry over.
Travis can clearly see the change in my expression and he starts to say something but I cut him off before he can finish.
"Um I don't know, It was just dirty. Seemed like it needed a wash."
"Taylor..."
"Ok, fine. I was upset about something earlier and the pillow got wet so I washed it. Ok?"
"Baby what made you so upset you were crying? Why didn't you call me?"
"You were working. It's not a big deal. Please just drop it Travis."
"What? No. You were clearly upset. Please talk to me."
"Travis just fucking drop it ok? Am I not allowed to just be sad?"
Done with this extremely annoying conversation, I made my way back upstairs.
I know he's going to follow me, but maybe he'll let me have a few minutes to myself first.
I think I have to tell him. He's obviously not going to just let it go.
There's a knock at my bedroom door and I pause for a moment but decide to let him in.
"Joe."
"What?"
"Joe. You want to know why I was crying, so i'm telling you. Joe."
"What do you mean? You said you were over him, Taylor. I asked you several times and you said you were sure."
"I am sure, Travis. I don't know. We were together for six years. We thought we were going to get married and have kids and live happily ever after. But clearly we were wrong and it hurts. I love you. I really do. And I don't miss him, I just can't help but wonder what could've been."
Travis turns around to walk out and I assume he just needs a minute to process what I've just told him. I don't blame him, I'd probably need a minute too.
Eventually, I decide to go back downstairs and see if maybe he'll want to talk. I see him sitting at the table with a bowl of food. There's one across from him, too. I guess this is his way of telling me that dinner's ready?
"Thank you for dinner. It's so good."
He doesn't respond.
"Travis i'm over him. Seriously. I'm sorry I got so upset, it's really not a big deal. I love you."
He glances up at me and I can tell he doesn't know what to say.
"Taylor I want to be with you. But I can't be with someone who's still hung up on the past-"
"But i'm not. I promise. Travis, I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you. Being alone in this huge house just got to me. It's so lonely when you're gone and I have nothing to do."
We walk together over to the sink and place our empty bowls down.
"Ok. If you're sure, then I'm willing to stay. But you have to be able to tell me you're not hung up on him."
"I'm not. Like, at all."
"Ok. Then I guess we should head upstairs..." He says with a smirk
"What? Why?"
"Oh don't worry... you'll see."
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A/N: this was supposed to be two parts but wattpad was being very unhelpful so long story short (no pun intended) i had to just do one really long part 😅
idk if i love this storyline or hate it... lmk what you guys think!
i also need ideas for more of these one shots lol
