Venting about my shitty life

my gender

I often think about my body and mind. I often think about my own sex and gender identity. All I want is to be a boy, everyone at school calls me a she and it isn't great. Why was I born this way??? I didn't want to be female! Infact I never wanted to be born in the first place!! Why mom? Why?! I hate my boobs, my mom, everything. I'm still super closeted for a reason. My mom didn't accept me when I came out as non-binary to her! And continued to misgender me! Fuck you mom. I wish I was a boy in the first place....