Our Connection

CH 3

Richard's POV

All I could do was break down in my mom's arms as she consoled me, telling me that it wasn't my fault but deep down I still felt that it was my fault that Xavier did this to me, may be I didn't provide him enough love, may be I didn't do enough for him to just go look for it in someone else.

Even though I said big words of wisdom to Kevin, I was no less of a pathetic human.

Why did Xavier do this? What compelled him to take such a step. Weren't we happy with each other? Was he not happy with me? Did even one 'i love you' mean nothing to him?

"Son...come on, w-we have to go sign the papers". She removed me from herself and tightly held my hand as I walked alongside her like a zombie.

We reached in front of the morgue where the doctor was talking to Xavier's parents. Both of them were in a state of shock and probably not even listening to the doctor.

I don't know why but I felt absolutely nasty on the inside. I can't help but loathe everything around me, including the parents of the man who I loved with my entire heart and soul. Why was I getting angry at them? I don't know.

Xavier's dad saw me and stood in front of me, "You okay son?" He asks me. Huh? Am I okay?

"Okay? You're asking me am I okay?" I giggled with tears, "of course I'm super okay. My husband, your son was throwing dirt in my eyes, fucking cheating behind my back. I'm like 100% okay, in fact I feel like dancing and throwing a party. Come on, let's fucking celebrate, why are we all crying? We should be super happy that I was being cheated and played for so long!"

"Richie-
"No my dear mother in law, your son is one excellent actor. All this while he was going behind my back, kissing someone else while I waited like a fool for him. God knows how many lies he told me and I blindly believed him without a word. Because I trusted him. I TRUSTED HIM WITH ALL MY HEART!"

The entire hospital was silently staring at us. "Son please people are watching-

"Let them fucking watch! You want me to sign on this stupid death certificate. I won't. I have no relation with this cheater. Bury him, burn him, throw him off the cliff I don't give a bloody damn about it! Because of this man, I can no longer trust in love. HE RUINED EVERYTHING!"

"RICHARD ENOUGH!" My dad shouted but I could only let out a scoff. "I'm not going back home with this cheater". I say and leave the hospital, ignoring all the shouts behind me.

They want me to go back home with him. Him? My fucking ass I will do that.

With heavy steps I walk as far as possible, away from this hospital. My car is still in the airport but I don't care. It'll be dropped back home anyways. Right now I need to stay the fuck away from them.

My watch ticked midnight. Right, it's Xavier's birthday.

Xavier, you're a damn cheater but I'm not. I won't break the promise of celebrating your birthday and your success....success of going behind my back. Come on let's celebrate.

I found a small cake shop and bought a cupcake and a candle. There was a church nearby. Xavier loved coming to the church on his birthday so why not? Let's fulfill his dying wish also.

I entered the cold church where candles were lit in front of the statue of Jesus Christ.

Flashback

"Xavier, I literally booked such a nice restaurant and you want to celebrate your birthday inside this empty church? Are you serious?" I pouted at him and he simply smiled at me as we walked and sat on a bench in front of the statue.