𝐓𝐈𝐄𝐃 𝐁𝐘 𝐂𝐎𝐈𝐍𝐂𝐈𝐃𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐨𝐧𝐞

                            TANYA'S POV

          "उसकी आँखों ने दीवाना सा कर दिया,
कि दिल हमारा होश खो बैठा"

Terror built in my nerves, i know any of this isn't true. It's all a nightmare. But my eyes are not ready to get rid of this. They aren't opening.

Very uneven breathing is felt when i finally gather the courage to open my eyes. The brown ceiling looks a lot more horrifying now. It's not calming me anymore.

I chose specifically brown colour to release all the fear whenever i open my eyes. But this isn't helping much today. I stare at the dark room while my face soaks in the sweat.

I feel like air is suffocating me. I am taking deep breaths to make it a little normal but seems like my system isn't ready to breathe.

I get up using my hands to push myself up. I sit with a pillow behind my back. The lamp shows the slightest of light. I forward my hand to shift it to shine mode. The room is now a lot more visible than a minute before.

I look for water in the container which is placed beside me. It is empty.

Fucking staff. Why do i even pay them?

With a deep exhale i move myself to get up. This is the hardest thing to do i swear. My body doesn't feel like balancing itself.

I can do this.

My inner subconscious gave me enough strength. I pushed back the strange feeling. It's okay. It will be okay by morning. I just need to calm myself.

That was an accident. Yes an accident.

I take steps to reach kitchen. As soon as i swtich the light on, Ishani came to me. I look at her with a smile.

"You know you don't need to fake your emotions in front of me mera bacha." She says while ruffling with my hairs.

Ishani has been a motherly figure to me. Since my parents died in that accident. I see her as my mentor. She always rescues me.

"I know Ishani and i am not hiding anything. It's just so normal that I don't get affected anymore." I shudder her hand away and leans to fill water in the container.

Ishani is the staff head. She deals with all of them. Also I don't have this much time to deal with them.

"By saying that you don't get affected, this won't get any better Tanya." She mocks me knowing how good i am at lying.

"I don't want it to get better either. I need to feel that pain. I need to remind myself how i lost them." My voice breaks but i manage to not show it.

My parents. I lost them.