HOW TO KILL YOURSELF.

Contemplating Death.

  (the experience itself, what
we imagine or fantasize will happen at
the time of death, what we would like
to have happen, what we have been taught
will happen and how we feel about that,
how we feel about the encounter with the
unknown that death will be)

fear of pain is an important reason to hesitate
when contemplating self-termination. we don't want
to become paincenters, we want to terminate the
pain we may be feeling (often psychological). the
Surity Factor of practical methods is an important
part of their consideration (which is why I include
so much detail in the posts below evaluating
methods, probably obvious to any who have seriously
considered suicide before).

but what is it about pain that we fear? to some
extent this fear is entirely groundless and
irrational. are we sure we don't want to feel ANY
pain at all, even for a moment when the grenade we've
placed next to our head goes off? flying through the
air on the way to the ground we don't want to imagine
the impact at high speed and the very short stimulus
of every one of our nerves? driving onward with our
heads flying backwards after being lopped off by
piano wire attached to the axle of a parked truck or
the trunk of a large tree, we don't want to feel
the 'awkwardness' of seeing the world suddenly go
topsy-turvy, feeling an imaginary body and wondering
where 'we' are now?

this is why experimenting with pain-play and getting
over a dread fear of it can be valuable. we begin to
understand that it is a *temporary* response to
intense change (whether this be the change of
decaying and dying as we age or due to some, possibly
desired 'catastrophe'). eventually it stops being the
obstacle it was and we can decide on suicide with a
clear will.