If Only

A writer

Lilly's POV

A writer is someone with so much skill that they an make you feel an emotion without even being there to express it.

I always wrote as a hobby. Probably because I cant speak.

I write about what i'm feeling or about what happened throughout my day.

When I have nothing to write on I feel powerless.

I was still looking at myself in the bathroom mirror admiring my braids. Eva did a really good job on them.

I shifted my eyes to meet Eva's already looking at me. She looked almost happy.

I looked back at the three women with a little smile on my face. 

Amber started by saying "Alrighty so Lilly what do you want to do today" 

'Go home' I thought to myself but i felt that would make them mad.

I quickly thought of something else. 'Watch a movie' I wrote on my notepad. I quickly showed it to them.

"Sounds like a plan" said Eva as Jade walked over to me to pick me up.

We walked around the house until we came across a theater room. It had a large black couch with blankets and pillows on it.

Jade set me down on the couch carefully. While Amber and Eva made themselves comfortable on the couch. 

I stayed sitting up. I held my notepad in my hand as I wrote 'Can I have crutches?' and showed the girls.

"No" Said Amber

'Why not? They would help me get around without bothering you guys as much' 

"You're not bothering us Lilly we just cant have you being so mobile considering your last escape didn't go so well" Said Eva smirking at the memory of my last escape attempt.

I furrowed my eyebrows and crossed my hands. I decided I would sit on the floor as to avoid further physical contact with any of them.

I was comfortable there until Jade walked back into the room and stared at me sitting on the carpeted floor. 

"No" She quickly said coming over to me to pick me up. She set me down on the couch to which I scooted off and sat on the floor.

"She really knows how to piss Jade off" Said Amber with a snicker.

"Lilly i'm not dealing with this right now so get.On.the.Fucking.Couch now." Said Jade glaring at the back of my head.

I stayed in my spot not moving until I felt Jade grab me by my hair. I winced in pain as she pulled me up by my hair. She suddenly picked me up throwing me into the wall. 

I fell down in pain gasping for air as it had been knocked out of me. I saw Jade walk towards me picking me up by the throat pinning me against the wall i had been thrown at.

"Why cant you ever fucking listen!?" She yelled in my face. I felt tears rolling down my face as I tried prying her hands off my throat.

"S-S-Sorry" I yelled repeatedly.

Her hand continued to tighten on my throat. "Learn to fucking listen!" She yelled at my face as I started to see stars appear.

She finally let go letting me fall down to the floor below me. I finally let the rest of my tears flow. Jade walked back towards me I quickly sat up moving away from her. 

I put my hands up in front of me in an attempt to protect myself from her. She grabbed both of my wrist pulling me up into her chest using her other hand to hold me up by my waist.