Suicidal Teenage Dream(Trilogy)

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i don't want to do this again

i don't want this to happen again.

 I thought it was all over. 

i can't do this anymore...

i can't...

i can't take it...

i just need to....

i need to get away.

away from everything

i have no purpose to be here

i have to leave

my heart and head and soul...

it can't take anymore of this....

the pain...

the disappointment...

my heart feels like its just being stabbed over and over again

and i can't take this feeling anymore

i need to leave

leave this retched world of what i used to remember that i loved

but now... 

its like living in hell...

i can't do this anymore...

i need to go!

I CANT TAKE IT! 

I CANT!

I NEED TO GO! 

I...I..I CANT!

I DONT WANT TO DO THIS ANYMORE!

I AM DRIVEN TO INSANITY!

INSANITY!

OF THE PEOPLE I USED TO LOVE AND CARE ABOUT

THEY HAD DONE THIS TO ME!

WHAT HAVE I EVER DONE TO THEM?!

NOTHING!!

NOTHING I SAY!

I GAVE THEM LOVE AND FRIENDSHIP!

AND THIS IS HOW THEY REPAY ME?!

THEY! 

THEY DID IT!

THEY DID THIS TO ME! AND I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE! 

THEY HAD MADE ME THIS WAY!

THEY MADE ME WHO I AM!

I AM WEAK!

I AM WORTHLESS!

AND I AM NOT THE PERSON I THOUGHT I WAS!

I THOUGHT I WAS STRONG!

IT THOUGHT I COULD TAKE IT!

I thought...

that maybe...

just maybe...

somewhere in their soul..

that they were still the little kids i grew up with...

the ones that loved me...

the ones that cared...

and the one that i could trust and not be afraid of...

but....

i was wrong...

they are monsters... 

and always will be...

and i can't do this...

they need to pay for their actions...

and this is the only way...

"Faith?" said a voice...

"What are you doing?!" they screamed

"No! Stop! Stop it!" pain etched their voice

"Stop!!!!" and just like that limp on the ground...