INNOCENT🍓 ○YEONBINGYU○

06

Beomgyus pov:

I was never considered manly or maybe not even a man since I'm built so weak and fragile.

My grandma always told me
"Start working out beomgyu no girl would date a womanlike man."

I know she didn't mean harm by it, but deep down, it hurt so much to the point I would cry myself to sleep knowing that I'm not a manly man or maybe I'm not even a man I'm just a fragile boy that might break if you poke him too hard.

My maids, they used to bathe me when I was little, and they would always point out how smooth my skin was, which was endearing at first but as I statred aging I  realized that I never grew hair.

And that wasn't normal.

My grandpa got mad, and he punished for shaving because that wasn't what a masculine manly male was supposed to do. I have never shaved ever in my life, but I knew better not to talk back.

That was until they relearnt that i couldn't grow hair on any part of my body (other than head). Not even pubic hair, and that angered them. They took their anger out on me, but after they were done with me, and my body was no longer flawless, it took about 1 day for me to heal it all.

Which made me even more weird, so they finally took me to the doctor later on. I found out I have a disease called x (I just made this up, so pls make a name for it)

This is a rare disease it's nothing much. I just don't grow unnecessary hair and get healed up faster than most people. That's about it.

But is it? Because that whole "power" made me feel the most insecure person alive. I found myself crying almost every night because grandma didn't look at me the way she used to. She was disgusted in me.

Grandpa should be left in the past because I don't think I would like to remember what he was like.

So when these two hyungs looked at my private part, I felt the urge to throw up.

They probably think I'm disgusting.
Now they won't ever want to be my friend.

I just got in my room, and obviously, I started sobbing. This is not what a man should act like. My grandma would be disappointed, but I just couldn't help myself, I'm so pathetic.

As I crouched down on the floor, I started thinking about all the bad memories.

But my thoughts were interrupted by someone's hands. They were on my face, wiping off the tears that strained my face.

It was Yeonjun, such a sweet hyung he is, I thought, An angel that I'll never be.