I wonder how she feels when she sees me talking to other people, and not her. its been about 5 months now, I cant help but think of her every day.
sorry for my attitude,
sorry for my lack of care,
sorry for lying.
sorry for the things I did.
sorry for not being a better friend.
I don't know why I'm saying sorry when I'll never have the opportunity to tell you how I feel. I changed my entire persona for you, I changed what I could, I took away the flaws that I could dissolve. even though you did more things than I did, I still wanna say sorry because I feel as if this whole situation is my fault. my mom tells me I didn't do anything, however to you, I did a whole lot more.
I ignore your flaws because I want to be a better friend to you, I ignore every bad thing about you because you're the only person that really knows me, and you tell me I took advantage of that. a part of me knows I really didn't do anything wrong, but I can't help but say sorry all the time. even though we laugh together sometimes it doesn't really mean we're friends, and I need to stop getting all happy and giddy because you chose to say a single word to me.
I try to bottle down these feelings but somehow they keep floating right back up to the surface.
