Haunted - A modern Astarion AU

Chapter Five

The smell of bergamot and citrus filled my nose, the moment I woke up again and it felt like I was finally home again. My bed hadn't been this comfortable in years but then I remembered that I had fallen asleep on my couch, with Astarion. Only then I noticed the warm and steady breath of Astarion hitting my neck and my feelings were going insane. Just like my bodily reaction.

Astarion was lying behind me, one arm tightly wrapped around me, and my back was pressed against his chest, with no amount of space left. His breathing was slow and steady, indicating that he was in fact still asleep and for a minute I just... enjoyed it.

We hadn't been this peaceful around each other in years and I had missed it so much. The warmth his body was radiating, soothed me even more and I automatically moved myself more into his body. In that moment I felt something hard poking against my lower back and my eyes widened immediately. It wasn't like Astarion, and I had never shared a bed before. I knew it was a normal reaction for men in the morning, but something else left me breathless. "Evelyn, you need to... you need to stop pressing yourself against me", Astarion whispered into my ear, his breath hitching a little bit, but at the same time he only tightened his grip around me. He didn't move away, the closeness of his lips against my ears sending shivers down my spine and I wanted more. Maybe I was still asleep, and this was the best dream I have ever had, but I would use this opportunity.

Ever so slightly, I moved my head a little bit to the side, exposing my bare neck to Astarion and my hands found their way to his arms. I didn't know how to breath anymore and it seemed like Astarion had forgotten too, but then I heard him taking in a shaky breath. "One word. Just one word and I'll do anything you want", he whispered against my ear, and I couldn't take it anymore. "Kiss me. Please", my words were soft, yet pleading and my body automatically pressed my hips harder against Astarion's. His almost too quiet hiss, let me know that he did enjoy it and then I already felt his lips against my neck. No words could ever truly describe what I felt in that moment, simply because it was too perfect.

Astarion kissed and sucked several spots on my neck and my breathing audibly picked up. My hips were now rocking against Astarion's in a steady rhythm, and I only heard him groaning against my neck. His teeth also came into play, gently biting into my neck but I enjoyed it and Astarion noticed it. His gentle chuckle made my head spin, but I had really hard evidence that he was enjoying this too. Carefully he pressed one of his legs in between mine, forcing me to open my legs a little bit more and my nails were now digging into his skin. "I knew you'd like that", Astarion murmured, and his confidence killed me. His arm that was holding me against him, slowly moved to the hem of my shirt and the moment his hand disappeared underneath my shirt, he bit into my neck, forcing my first audible moan out.

My entire body was covered in chills, anticipating and enjoying Astarion's cold hand. He slowly moved his hand up my side, teasing me with every movement and when he finally reached my breasts, I couldn't help but sigh. His touch was like a whisper moving over my body and I enjoyed every single second of it. "I've been wanting to do this for so long", his voice could only be described as a growl by now and I loved every second of it. The moment those words left Astarion's lips, he started to rub and pinch my most sensitive spot on my breast and I immediately took in a sharp breath. It was like a shock moving through my entire body and I tried my best to press myself harder against Astarion. I needed to feel him even more. Needed his closeness but I couldn't think straight. "Touch me there", I whispered, sounding more needy than I had planned on, but then again, I started to pull on his arm a little bit, indicating my most sensitive spot between my legs. Once again, Astarion's chuckle sent a shiver down my spine and for another agonizing minute or two, he continued teasing me, until he kissed the spot behind my ear. "Anything for you". With those words, his hand started to finally wander south but once again he took his time. His hand caressed and touched every part of my upper body until he moved it underneath my shorts and my panties.

It felt like as if we were both breathing in synch, anticipating every next step and then I felt his cold hand, where I had wanted him most. I couldn't help but moan, as one of my hands gripped my blanket and the other was digging into Astarion's leg, which only now I noticed was only wearing briefs. I couldn't think. Couldn't even breath because of this feeling and it seemed like Astarion had the same thought. "Fuck, Evelyn. You're such a good girl for me", he hissed against my neck, biting into it once more and those words almost undid me. His praising words were enough to rile me up even more and I gently turned my head, wanting to finally taste his lips. Astarion's red eyes met mine and for a few seconds we were both just staring at each other, panting, as Astarion slowly started to move his fingers. We both seemed to want to say so many different things and I almost went in for the kiss, when a sudden loud banging against my door startled us both.

"Evelyn, I know you're in there! We need to talk", Ryan's words and voice were like a bucket of ice-cold water, because Astarion and I had almost five feet of distance between us within two seconds. I knew that my face was flush, just as Astarion's was. As quick as I could, I tried to fix my clothes but then I heard the banging again, making me jump. My eyes met Astarion's again but this time all the lust and...love was gone. He looked like he was ready to kill Ryan and then his gaze wandered down to the burn marks on my arms. I wanted to stop him, but I don't think anyone could have, the way Astarion stormed to the door.

"Evel - Why are y - Get out of my girlfriend's apartment", I heard Ryan growling at Astarion, and I immediately got scared. Sure, Astarion could handle himself, I knew that. But Ryan was unpredictable, and he wouldn't shy away from playing dirty. Astarion on the other hand didn't seem impressed by Ryan at all. "She broke up with you, weeks ago and let me just tell you once thing. If you ever come near her again, you'll really get to know me." His words rang through the slightly ajar door, that I was watching like a hawk, as I stood in front of my closet hugging myself. Every part of me hated that I wasn't out there, telling Ryan off myself but I couldn't see him now. Not after what had just happened. My thoughts started to delve deeper and deeper into what boundary Astarion and I had just crossed, when I suddenly saw the door opening again and Astarion was looking at me. He stopped next to the door, watching me and I couldn't look away from him. Astarion was about to say something, but I had to get the first words out. I had to stop him from doing something he would regret later. "I'm at the library every Tuesday and Saturday night at 11pm, if you really want to help me with the presentation.", I informed him, wanting to keep him close, because I could really use his help after everything went to shit. My words did catch Astarion by surprise, because his hand immediately moved to the back of his neck, and he started scratching it. "Sure. I'll help you with that but Evelyn... About what just happened", he started to say, and it broke my heart, but I couldn't let him continue. I had to keep us both away from each other, knowing it would only end with one of us getting hurt, if we continued doing this. "It was a mistake. Let's just pretend it didn't happen. Please", I was pleading him again but this time it didn't feel good. Of course, I would've loved for this to have gone farther but it was good that Ryan intervened.

For a second Astarion just looked at me and this time I had to look away, hugging myself tighter once more and then I only heard him sighing. "Yeah, no you're right. I'll see you Saturday.".