Like I Can

14

Chapter 14
(Smut chapter, just an fyi)
We sat in silence for a few moments, I could tell she was hurt and confused. I just confessed the secret I've been keeping for years. It was stupid of me to do at this moment in time because Camila is going through a breakup.

"My dad put you up to it?" Camila asked with a rude attitude, I was scared of the mess I just caused. What would happen now?

My throat was swollen shut, I couldn't speak. I was embarrassed and nervous to even speak since Camila was in a state of shock and anger.

Camilas eyes pierced mine, she wanted answers and she wasn't going anywhere until she got what she wanted. She crossed her arms and waited.

"The two days before we were planning on leaving, when you were going to leave for college your dad invited me to the house when you were gone. He told me that I'm just going to distract you, and you didn't need that since the goal was for you to be on broadway. He made me feel guilty as if I was holding you back. I felt like I had to tell him what he wanted to hear." My words came out slowly, with regret and sadness.

Her facial expression changed on her face when she saw how hurt I felt.

"I never wanted to leave you, the day of your flight I went, I was in my car and saw your plane take off. I hated myself for not going, for listening to your father. I had convinced myself that what I did was for you, for you to live your dream." I told her, feeling tears in my eyes. I didn't want to cry nor did I expect myself to get so emotional during my confession but this was the first time I spoke the details of that day to Camila.

Camila sat there in silence. "Come here." Camila said softly, bringing her arms out for a hug. I immediately entered the embrace and wrapped my arms around her. She pulled me closer to her, she rested her head on my neck.

"Don't be sad." I heard her speak, rubbing my back.

"I'm so sorry I didn't tell you sooner. I was just scared you would've thought the same as your dad." I said letting out a deep sigh.

Camila released her arms from my body, I instantly missed the feeling of us being so close.

"Lauren," she started putting her hand under my chin and gently lifting my head so our eyes could met.

"Being with you made me the happiest I could ever be. Not one second did I ever think you could be holding me back. I just hate that you didn't realize that." Camila spoke, our eyes remained on each other. My heart sank when she told me how she felt. I was young and dumb, thinking that I wasn't good for Camila.

"Do you remember that night I broke up with you?" I asked, looking at Camila whose eyes widened.

"A little." She confessed.

"You asked me what I saw in the future, I said I didn't know. Well I lied. I saw us. Definitely not in this position with you being engaged to someone else but I saw us together. I'm sorry I didn't fight for us." I told her. I started to lean closer to her lips.

"I wanna fight for you, for us. If you don't want this, stop me." I said seeing Camila slowly close her eyes as I locked our lips together, immediately closing my eyes.

Waves of electricity ran through my body as our lips moved in a slow and sensual rhythm. I deepened the kiss as my tongue began to enter her mouth, our tongue fought for dominance and I won.

Camila let out a soft moan as I lightly bit down on her bottom lip. My hands ran up her side, roaming under her shirt until I felt her bra.

"Oh god." Camila whispered, as I continued trailing my kisses down her neck.