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EPISODE #18

A/N POV

Waking up early, you decided to make breakfast for everyone because they couldn't eat their dinner due to the incident.

Soon everyone slowly woke up, not surprised to see you awake so early cause they knew that you usually wake up early.

Everyone was seated at the dining table, eating breakfast, while you were just playing with your food.

Yoongi : Y/N.
Y/N : Yeah?
Yoongi : What's wrong? Why aren't you eating your food?
Y/N : I'm not hungry. That's all.
Jimin : But we didn't even have dinner.

You just shrugged.

Y/N : I'm just gonna go and get dressed. It's already 7:40.

Soon everyone was at the company. Preparing for the performance.

The album was going to be released in a bit and the members decided to watch it together.

Yoongi, Namjoon, Seokjin and Taehyung sat on the couch while Jimin, Y/N and Jungkook sat on the floor, infront of them.

Laptop being set on the table infront of them, eager to see the end result of their new album.

Exactly at 1pm their album was released.

They started watching going through all the songs.

"Gosh, why do I look so bad in all the MVs?"
Y/N thought

After watching all the songs, they all started practicing again.

Finally at 4pm they decided to stop and rest for a while before having to go for the performance.

By 5:30pm, they all reached the set.

They changed to the outfits that the stylists gave them and sat in the chairs to get their hair and make up done.

Jin, Namjoon, Taehyung and Hoseok were getting their hair and make up done while Jungkook and Y/N were sitting on te couches waiting for their turn.

Yoongi was fast asleep beside them and Jimin was roaming around making videos, talking to the other members.

Jimin : And finally here we have our Maknaes and Yoongi Hyung sleeping as usual.
Yoongi : You don't want me to kill you, do you Jimin?

He mumbled with his eyes still closed.

Jimin : Oh, Hyung you're awake?
Yoongi : No, I'm sleep talking.
Jimin : Looks like it.

Jimin mumbled and rolled his eyes before moving the camera back to Jungkook and Y/N's faces.

Jimin : Anyways, back to our Maknaes. Guys, how excited are you for today's performance?
Jungkook : I'm really excited to see ARMY today. And I hope I won't mess up the choreography.
Y/N : Aniyo, Oppa you won't. I believe in you. *smile*

Y/N said patting Jungkook's shoulder.

Jimin : What about you Y/N?
Y/N : Well.. I'm nervous. I mean I'm still not used to performing on stage and stuff, so...let's see how it goes.
Jimin : Don't worry Y/N-ie, you'll do great.
Y/N : Thanks Oppa-
Make-up Artist : Y/N-ssi please come, it's your turn.
Y/N : Looks like I gotta go. Bye ARMY.

She waved at the camera before walking towards the chairs.

After 30 Minutes

Everyone were talking to each other, some standing some sitting, getting final make up touches.

Manager : Guys, 2 minutes left, get ready.

They gathered around near the stage, ready to go up.

Soon they went up the stairs towards the stage.

I Need U, Dope and Converse High were songs they were going to perform.

Starting with I Need U, everything went well, continuing onto Converse High.

Half way to Dope, Y/N was standing at a corner of the stage, to stay away from the camera, waiting for her turn, a bottle of water was thrown her way.

Luckily it didn't hit her but most people saw it except the members, given they were concentrating to the choreography.

Few cameras captured Y/N's startled look as well.

Instead of staying too much distracted Y/N quickly moved to her place, continuing her performance.

After the performance everyone got off the main stage and went to back stage, still oblivious to what happened.

Reaching home, everyone took showers turn by turn. Y/N went last.

Walking in the bathroom, Y/N took her clothes off.

She turned around, she moved her head to stare at her back in the mirror.

A 4 inch scar on her back which she recieved by a deep cut.

Y/N turned her head back, before going underneath the shower.

She turned on the shower and washed up quickly.

Getting out of the shower, Y/N wrapped a towel around her body.

She noticed a razor by the sink. Tempted to cut herself, her hand slowly went towards the razor before picking it up.

Y/N brought it near her left wrist, right above the wounds she made a day ago.

Gliding the razor onto her wrist felt satisfying.

She felt tears falling down her face.

But was it anything new?

No

Did the tears effect her?

No, not anymore

Did it drain her mentally?

Yes

She cut herself a few times until she was satisfied.

Y/N backed up near a wall, sliding down and hugging her knees, she continued crying.

Knowing everyone was asleep, since they all were tired, she didn't care how long it took her in the bathroom.

After a while, clueless of how long she stayed in the bathroom, she got up, washed her hands, wrist, razor and face before wearing a hoodie and shorts.

She looked at her faced in the mirror. It look puffy due to all the crying.

She left the bathroom. Not wanting to disturb any of the boys, she decided to sleep on the couch.

Lying down on the couch, she stared at the ceiling until sleep took over her.

TO BE CONTINUED
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