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28 - Blind

•Serenity Mansion•

Jeonghan sat on his bed as he sighed. These days were getting hard for him because all he could think about was Seungcheol.

At some point, he knew he was overthinking. He knew things weren't that deep but he just couldn't help it.

And the moment where he was singing along with the older while he held his hand and swayed him around so gently was something he wasn't forgetting for a whole week.

"Should I tell him?" Jeonghan clutched his chest as he felt really overwhelmed.

"But what if he doesn't feel the same?" Jeonghan's heart began to ache, "Then I'll lose him as a friend as well. I'll lose his warmth and comfort."

"He's gentle with everyone, I'm not special." Jeonghan sighed, "But he promised me that he'll stay by my side forever."

"As a friend, though." Jeonghan mumbled as he began to feel suffocated, "I drank too much."

"But I do like him." Jeonghan confessed to himself, "I want him more than just a friend so why should I stay back?"

"Joshua was right, if I've chance to move on, then I should. Even Jihyo said the same thing." Jeonghan recalled, "But Seungcheol's yes or no matters the most. What if he sees my just like a friend?"

"But then again, what was that when he was singing with me. I could see it in his eyes." Jeonghan reminisced that moment, "But it may be because everyone asked us to do the skit."

"Can't you just make a decision Yoon Jeonghan? It's not that hard." Jeonghan rebuked himself.

He grabbed his hair in frustration as he tried to calm himself but he had granted that power to Seungcheol long ago.

Whenever he was restless, he just wanted him and his embrace.

He got up from the bed and made his way to Seungcheol's room. He stood in front of the door which was closed.

He raised his hand to knock but halted, "I shouldn't bother him every now and then. He'll get annoyed."

"And what am I going to tell him anyways." Jeonghan dropped the idea to see the older as he began to leave.

But his legs froze because he didn't want to leave. Deep down, he was too restless to simply get into Seungcheol's arms.

"Why would he mind? He said I can even wake him up from sleep if I want to talk to him." Jeonghan turned around, "But he just said it because he's a good person. It doesn't mean I've the rights to bother him."

Jeonghan turned around again to leave, "But a minute won't hurt right? Argh I'm going crazy."

The more I love you, the more greedy I become
Guided by the light called you
Like this, my eyes are blind, far away.

Jeonghan stood in front of Seungcheol's room while clutching his chest tightly. His heart and mind were having a solid battle while he was simply suffering.

"I should just leave." Jeonghan finally made a decision and descended downstairs.

The hall was empty and silent. Everyone had probably passed out in their respective rooms. He was the only one who was being mistreated by his own anxiety.

He poured himself a glass of water while standing against the counter of the kitchen. He scoffed as he closed his eyes, trying to calm himself.

He tried to recall Seungcheol's words which he always says while calming him but he couldn't. Instead his head was being messed up by unknown words and voices.