How it feels to breathe again| Rafe Cameron FanFic

Virgin? | part 3

I WAS A VIRGIN for the longest time. Most of my boyfriends had broken up with me because of it. Either they tried to pressure me into having sex with them or they cheat on me because I can't.

I still am a virgin. But nobody really knew except my family or the pouges.

When I was about 16 I cut myself because of me being a virgin. I cried until my throat clogged up and my head felt numb. I still have some cut marks that are still there. Nobody knew I cut myself but I don't think they would care. Which is why I never did get a decent boyfriend. I've only had like two who broke up with me the next year. Then I've hated myself for it ever since. I still do. It took a year for me to heal. To get better. I went to therapists and I finally got the courage to tell Pope my best friend. But till then I still felt broken in the inside. I just hated myself.

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The next morning I woke up to sunlight beaming through the Cameron's white curtains that cover the windows. I got up from bed and went to take a shower.

After I took a shower I went downstairs to Sarah.

"Good morning!" Wheezie greeted and gave me a little side hug.

"Morning." I called out to Sarah and Wheezie.

"Hey, could you call Rafe down to tell him the food is ready?" Rose asked placing the food on the table.

"Oh yeah." I replied. I walked up the stairs and to his room.

While walking I remembered our interaction last night. How weird.

I knocked on the door. When there was no answer I opened it to peak through. Then the water was running. He must've been taking a shower. But I couldn't help but become curious about what he had in his cabinet in his drawers. I slowly took a step into his room then walked over to his drawer. Maybe he had like a porn magazine or a funny costume. I opened one of his drawers to find his boxers lying there fairly neat. I was acutely surprised to see Rafe's room it was pretty clean and comfortable. I looked in another drawer and saw some condemns and some rings that I've seen him wear before. And a bit of jewelry. Right as I closed it the bathroom door opened and Rafe came out with a towel draped around his waist.

"What are you doing?" He asked eyeing me. I couldn't help but notice his washboard abs.

"Oh umm, Rose wanted me to tell you food is ready." I explained. I walked over to the door when he stopped me.

"Are you staying at the party tonight?" He asked me.

"Yeah." I replied. He just nodded in response bitting his lip. I walked out the room confused.

"Bye Gabes." I heard him saying to me from a distance.

After eating breakfast I decided to get ready for the day and start my shift at the Wreck.

I got to work and clocked in.

A few hours into my shift I saw recognizable face. It was Cam.

He was at the bar and he looked super drunk but I decided to say hi anyway. I was already done with my shift so why not.

I walked up to him and took a seat next to him on the stool.

"Hey, Cam." I smiled.

"Oh, Coral! Heyyy." Cam replied to me.

I ordered a drink from the bartender when Cam spoke up clearly drunk.

"Oh come on! Get a shot!" He tolled me smiling at me to get one.

"Ok fine." I gave in. I ordered two shots and a mimosa from the bartender who nodded and poured me the drinks I ordered.

I downed the two shots and didn't even use a chaser which I regretted immediately. I drank my mimosa after. Me and Cam talked for hours until I got super tipsy to the point I could barely walk or talk straight.

"Sooooo, you want to know a secret?" I asked him drunkly.

"What?" He asked also very drunk.

I leaned to his ear where only he could hear. "I'm a virgin." I said. I didn't know why I said that. We were talking about his hookups so I decided to bring it up. Like what's the worst that could happen?

"Virgin?" He asked bitting his lip looking me up and down.

I got uncomfortable at his looks so I just giggled and pretended everything was fine obviously still really drunk.

And suddenly I had to go to the bathroom and excused myself from him. I trotted to the bathroom without thinking about my surroundings and who was approaching me.

I opened the bathroom door and suddenly felt a force on my back pushing me in and someone locking the door. It was Cam. He was hovering over me.

"What the fuck Cam?" I said trying to get out but he was blocking the door.

Tw: sexual assault

He put a hand over my mouth and started kissing my neck.

My muffled screams were not heard. And he started trying to lift my shirt. But before he did I used all my force to push him off me and unlocked the door as fast as I could and ran out.

I ran outside and ran until I saw a black truck pull up next to me on the road.

No, no, no. This can't be happening. My throat hurts and it's clogged and it feels like I can't breathe until their window rolled down.

"Hey. What are you doing?" Rafe asked getting out of the truck.

My breathing was heavy but then slowly went to normal when I realized it was Rafe.

"What's wrong? Why were you running?" Rafe asked.

"Umm because...." Obviously I didn't want to tell him. I mean he probably wouldn't care. "I just um forgot something at the house." I lied.

"Ok I mean I'm just heading there now and I could give you a ride." He said. Rafe? Giving a pouge a ride? Wow. Never in a million years would I have thought that would happen.

"Oh, sure." I agreed. He nodded and told me to get in.

I hopped in the passenger seat of the truck and buckled my seat.

"Why are you doing this?" I asked somewhat confused.

"What I can't be nice for once?" He admitted.

"So you admitted that you're nice?" I said.

"What no." His brows furrowed. "You were just running in the middle of the road and just happen to go where  was going." He shrugged. "Now shut up before I drop you on the side of the street."

My mind went back to the moment with Cam then to the bad dream I had. What the fuck is going on?

We pulled into his house and I entered the door and walked quickly to my room.

I couldn't get my mind off of what had just happened so I fell asleep.

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I woke up at five and realized I had to get ready for the party.

"Fuck" I said completely forgetting about Cam. The headache was horrible I held my head in pain but got up and picked out clothes for the party.

By the time the party started rolling in I forgot Cam was going so I just decided to go to Sarah's room to get her so we could walk down together.