My Celebrity Crush

Chapter 10 I Fkd Up!

I watched as Chase left with tiers running down his face, and i felt my heart drop to my stomach as i sat alone in my lounge room. i stare out the window and watch as he fades into the distance, wondering if he will be ok.

"WHAT THE FUCK AMELIA" yells Ari as she re-enters my home. "what just happened?" she asks with her arms crossed and an angered look across her face.

"I will no longer be seeing chase. We are going our separate ways." I look at the reaction on Ari's face, and it's beginning to turn red. Soon, steam will come from her ears. I knew I was in for it, so I braced myself for her lecture.

"I'm waiting to hear the rest, Amelia!" She says in a deep, angry voice.

"He asked me to fight by his side while Amber gets the opportunity to have fun with me....." ari looks and raises an eyebrow. " he said that getting rid of Amber was going to be difficult, and she would try to do anything to come in between me and chase, personally no. I won't be able to handle that. So.... I told him no, and once he dealt with Amber, I'll be here."

The next thing I felt was a hand smacking the back of my head, sending me flying into the pillows that furnished the sofa.

"How dumb can you be, Amelia! I have no words to say to you. This is the stupidest thing you have ever done in your life.  There is going to be tough times in a relationship, and if Amber is that tough, its time you fight together to prove your relationship is worth more than a one night stand,  which I bet this Amber girl thinks it is."

I begin to consider her words as she tries to explain to me, that i made a mistake letting chase go.

"You fucked up Amelia, he is good for you, he loves you, cares for you, wants to make a life with you, and you just threw that away because your afraid to toughen up over some conflict. This is absurd. If your fear has anything to do with Cole, you need to get past that.  Everyone gets cheated on, so stop being a baby, stop living in the past, and fight for your future."

As she went on to tell me off and in the process mention Cole, I started to believe her words and somehow convinced myself I was wrong. Was I rejecting a life with chase because of my past. I didn't have any issues before that standing up for myself. Where did it all go wrong.

" I fucked up, and you didn't need to mention Cole, that was a long time ago now. But it's too late, he is gone and at this moment I don't have the energy to run after someone"

Ari grabs my phone and throws it at my head, "  talking rubbish and call him, you're not to "lazy" To do that, are you?

I shook my head and proceeded to call Chase, but his phone would either ring out or go right to voicemail. I missed the opportunity to hear chases ideas and to try a relationship with him, but he was unreachable.

Suddenly, my phone rings, and it's a message from Chase. I open the message to see a photo of him with Amber on his lap. He seems to be in his bed, surrounded by grey and black silk sheets, another message comes in and Amber is naked, her pale, skinny tall figure stands backwards to the phone camera as she looks toward towards chase who is now cuffed to the bed. I received 1 last message saying, "His mine, hands off."

"Please go home, Ari. I need some space." I ask and walk her out the door. I get changed into my running gear and go for a run up and down the beach until the sunset across the horizon. As I was walking back up past the bathrooms, I saw chase at the gym equipment alone, headphones in his ear, head dropped down, and moving the gym equipment slowly.

I contemplated walking past him, so I didn't have to confront him over what happened earlier today, but I needed to apologise. I walk up to him and tap him on the back.

He turns to look at me, and his eyes widen.

"Please, you don't have to say anything just listen, im sorry, I fucked up, and I was stupid to give you up. But that's too late now. I'm sorry if I have broken you, i was only thinking about myself and my own feelings. Anyway I won't keep you long, I wish you happiness with Amber".

He looks towards me his eye blood shot and his face wet from crying, " excuse me?" He says unsure of what I just blurted out to him.

I grab my phone and I show him the messages from Amber off his phone. His face goes as white as a ghost, when he realises that I knew about his sexual endeavours with Amber a few hours prior to seeing him tonight.

"I don't like confrontation because of an ex, Cole. We were out one night when another girl went up to him screaming, why was he with another girl, that girl being me. But to me he was with another girl, she attempted to reach over him to pull my hair but missed, so she pushed me to ground instead, and they both walked off together."

"I hadn't dated since that time, I spent all my hours at work and now I'm in this situation because I can't trust, or have the confidence to fight my battles."

I smile a small side smile, and I begin to walk away from him and back home. I enter the door, lock it tight, and go for a shower. After my shower, I lay in bed with a book until I felt myself dozing off and blacking out into a deep sleep.