My Celebrity Crush

Chapter 12 Mistake

The last 2 years of my life have been unbearable, losing Amelia, going through the pain alone, and having no choice but to deal with Amber again. I lost the love of my life, and i needed an alternative to move on, and it wasn't the smartest, but it was the safest.

Being with Amber would mean that Amelia's name wouldn't be mentioned, and she wouldn't become one of Amber's targets. Although my life with her is miserable, it has given me the time to write and record more of my songs.

Amber hated when i would record, and she was in the room when we first started dating. Things still haven't changed, and im grateful. I spend all my time in the studio as i know she won't be there, and i get to have peace. Other than that, i am just showing my face to all her extravagant parties, friends, and employees.

I am mearly just a puppet to her, and she pulls the strings. At this moment, i am sitting in my studio trying to write the hardest and final song for my album when i received a call from amelia. My heart begins to race as i answered. On the other side, i hear crying, heavy heart broken crying and i begin to panic, is she ok. I call for her, but there is no answer, i call again, and it suddenly goes quiet, and the phone hangs up.

I leave the studio in a rush and make my way over to amelias' apartment, greet george and get him to help me find a way into her home to check on her. As i follow him up to her floor, my heart is racing, and my mind ticks with possibilities and what ifs.

George helped me slide into her apartment when she opened the door to George, we spoke, broken down, cried and here i am now on the outside of her door sitting on the floor sobbing intently into my hands, as i have once again lost and will never see the love of my life again. In this moment, i wanted to just stay at her door to feel close to her, to try to get some closure and somehow magically gain the confidence to get rid of amber.

I sit at her door crying, feeling my eyes puff up from the crying. Im hungry and thirsty, my body is weak, and i can feel my eyes closing. I hear voice talking in the background, but i thought i was just dreaming. I woke a few hours later, covered in a blanket and laying on the bed in amelias' apartment.

A few moments later, i see her walk in with a tray of food and coffee. She leaves it beside me and walks away. I finish the food and take it back out to the kitchen, i have a shower and gather my things. As i walk past her on the sofa laying down in her blankets i find myself staring at her, wanting to jump on her and hug her, give her a kiss so passionate that our hearts jump out of our chests. But i held back. Instead, i kissed her head and whispered, "i should have made love to you."

I turn and exit the door, make my way back home, and into my studio to attempt finishing the final track, Marry Me.

While writing words and scribbling on my notepad, i feel cold hands run down my chest and voice so high-pitched that it makes me jump from my chair. Standing in front of me, Amber. "Good morning, baby," that annoying little voice says to me. I look at her and half smile, "Morning," i say and try to turn around, but she grabs me and turns me towards her.

Suddenly, she pulls my shorts down and pushes me onto my chair, separating my legs apart. She throws her hair to the side and licks her lips, i feel her warm wet mouth cup my tip, and she begins to slowly move her head up and down. I close my eyes, and i throw my head back from the sensation running through my body. She continues and hits a spot that makes me let out a small moan of pleasure.

Consciously, i didn't want this, but my body said otherwise. So i let her continue so she could finish and i could continue my work. While she was sliding her wet mouth up and down my shaft, i saw her phone go off multiple times, from calls to messages. I looked over to her phone once again when it went off, and i saw a message. "Hi baby, last night was amazing. let's do it again."

I was curious at this point, so i slid open her phone and continued to read her messages. "Lets fuck",
"We can meet tonight", "the other night was amazing, i want you to do that to me again", "next time we need to role play like we did 6 months ago". One after one, each message i read my mouth dropped open wider and wider.

I continued to moan to make out like she was doing a good job, "Yes, like that, keep going," i say to keep her distracted a while longer. I quickly screenshot the messages, send them to myself, and delete them. I opened the messages on her phone and put my phone and the studios microphone on record.

"How does that feel? Are you close?" She says. "NO," I say, and she lifts her head. As she is looking up to me, i show her the messages from her phone, and her mouth drops open. "Get off me and explain," i say in a deep, demanding tone. She gets up quickly and snatches the phone out of my hands. "You have been cheating on me for most of this 2 year relationship with this man.... and how many others Amber?" I wait for her response, but she stays quiet.

"It's over, this relationship, this friendship, the engagement, you and i will have nothing to do with each other, including the people i hang out with. At any sign of distress or bullying from you aimed at the people i associate with, i will take it further and expose you, pack your shit and leave NOW!".

Her little body jolts as i scream out, now!. She rushes, gathers her things, and runs out of the apartment. I get up and begin to punch the bag hanging in my studio to de stress but it wasnt working, i layed back on the sofa in my studio and continued to finish myself of with the though of amelia ontop of me riding me until we climax together then falling into eachothers bodies out of breath and speechless. But not even that thought could help me come. I was completely turned off.

Later that night, i sat in my studio alone thinking of the one girl i should be with right now and ways i am going to get her back. It's now 1 a.m., and im still sitting senseless in my studio until i hear the doorbell. I drag my body out of the chair and open the door. My eyes widened, and there stood the girl of my dreams and her best friend. "I'll just wait here while you two chat," Ari says and waits with george in the hall.

Ami enters my home for the first time, i watch her as she looks around making herself aware of her surroundings. I continue to watch her until her eyes meet mine. " i love you amelia". She smiles and continues to look around. "Wow, you have a lovely home," she says quietly and waits for me to respond.

I continue to look at her and take in all her beauty, not to mention the fact that she showed up unexpectedly to my home, and it felt so right. "Amelia, why did you come?." I ask as i was curious to know and wondered how they all knew where i lived.

"After last night and this morning, well, and the last 2 years, I've been broken. My days empty my nights long, my heart not recovering, because i love you too, you are my soul mate i feel drawn to you, and seeing you again felt like we were continuing what we have, not starting all over again. Im sorry I didn't stay at your side and fight with you, im just not good with that drama, but now i want to fight with you. I know it's too late. You will be a married man, but know this is how i feel."

As she was talking and expressing her everything to me, a smile began to rise on my face getting bigger the more she told me. I grabbed her hands, "Amelia, me and Amber broke up, i found out she has been cheating on me with other men for half the relationship, at this moment she wont be an issue, but thats not to say that she wont try to cause me pain. Are you ready to fight with me if she does?"