"back when i was thirteen, whenever i watched a movie or read a novel, I'd always check the ending first. I was scared of the end, maybe a little too much. i was afraid to see hearts collapse. i couldn't endure the pain. i thought i could never. i was wrong. if everyone's life could be a story, then perhaps mine also had one of those heart wrenching ending. and i so desperately wanted to change that."• Sebastian August •
"if only i could finally feel worthy of love.
worthy of feeling that i have it in my heart, for you.
I would tell you i love you. and i would keep it in my heart forever."• Remoon Florence •
"i was tempted by rage. i fed my love to it until it turned into ashes. i wish i wasn't too late to see it. if only you made me realize before it was too late, before i became indifferent. now all i have left is merely the remnants of the love i used to have in my heart, for you."
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i have been trying to hate you for a long time.
and it's tearing me apart.
I don't want to, anymore. i can't.
i forgive you, Remoon
and i wish if i could forgive myself too.
YOU ARE READING
love me a thousand decembers
Romance"i loathed myself, for not knowing how to love. It felt like a sin, i was a huge sinner. i wish if i could feel worthy of love. I wish if i could tell you i love you while the feeling of it would bless my heart, it would wash away my sins."