All Because I Couldn't Say I Love You

I Need A Nap

"It's okay, Kie, I'm here." He says, looking up at me with tears running down his face. "No one's ever going to hurt you again." His thumbs wipe my tears.

I grab his face, placing a long kiss on his forehead before, wiping the falling tears.

"God, you're perfect. I wish you could see the way I see you." He confesses.

I smile, nodding slowly. "I'll fix everything for you."

He smiles back, "I'll give you all the tools you need to put yourself back together."

"I'll always be here if you need me, JJ." I whisper.

"I'm always here, Kie."

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KIE

I miss JJ. Recently, I've been getting bad, bad flashbacks, and haven't gotten to really see JJ in two weeks.

I really wanna be with him more than anything to be honest. I need him.

To get my mind off it, Sarah tried to take me shopping. It was nice idea and all, but I don't feel like doing anything. I barely can keep my eyes open. I feel sick and dizzy. I hunch over, holding my stomach.  Sarah pats my back. We barely make it out of her driveway before we're back in her bathroom.

Throwing up wasn't a good feeling. I didn't like the burn in my throat. The shortened gasps leaving in between each time. I sat up straight, huffing for air, finally done.

My eyes met Sarah's. Those brown eyes were nothing but concerned.

"Jesus, kie! What the hell happened!" She exclaimed, getting up with her phone tight to her ear.

"Sare, what are you doing?" I mumble, still breathless.

All I hear is muttering, mumbling. No words were made out. Maybe, that's because the room turned black.

Within the blink of an eye, or that's what it seemed like, I was back. Two blondes were staring down at me. One I was with before, and one I haven't seen for 2 weeks.

"Thank fuck." I hear JJ say as his face becomes less and less blurry. Blinking a few times helped, but I was barely still awake. JJ hands made it through my hair and Sarah's hand made it to my back, pushing me up. I sat against the headboard, and JJ followed by sitting on the edge of the bed. His hands still tangled in my hair as I move. "Everything okay, Kie?" He asks, voice low.

"Mhm." Is all I can get out, which, unshockingly, wasn't what JJ wanted to hear. He signals to Sarah, and she leaves with no words, shutting the door behind her.

"You threw up?" He asked, I nodded. "You didn't feel good?"

"Duh!" I smiled, which made him chuckle a little.

"Oh, whatever!" He said, rolling his eyes. A moment of silence carried through when the laughs died down. "You're really okay though?" He mumbled, sitting beside me against the headboard.

"Yeah, baby, I am." I assured him, smiling at the way he looked at me.

He cared so much. I mean, he's always cared. About all of us, but this was next level. JJ cares more about me than anyone I've ever met in my life. He's the sweetest boy ever, and I guarantee that, even he tends to be a hothead, he's my hothead. I swear, he's a softie for me.

"Good..." he sighs of relief, kissing the top of my head. "You're dehydrated as fuck, though. So I'm gonna get you some water, and you're gonna wait patiently for this handsome man to return, ight?" I nod in response, smiling ear to ear.

He walks out of the room. For the first time, I feel like I can do something. I mean, once my muscles don't feel like jelly. But, I mean it. JJ's so strong mentally, and having him with me, makes me feel it. My mentality is becoming a lot like his, and I can tell he's loving it.

He walks back in, and that makes me focus on him.

"You're smiling. Thinking about me, baby?" He says, handing me a glass of water, with a metal straw.

I'm wifing this man up.

"Always thinking about you, Jay." I confess, making him smile. Maybe he's blushing. No wait, he's totally blushing. "Aww, look who's blushin! I think you got a thing for me." I say between giggles. I bat my lashes innocently.

"Oh, shut up!" He rolls his eyes, smiling at me, taking his spot beside me.

"Anything for you!" I play along, kissing his cheek. We've been ignoring the slight rasp in my voice, which makes me kind of happy. I sound like JoJo Siwa. I am raspy today.

I take the glass from him, sipping at the water. The cold water soothes my aching throat. It doesn't burn like it did earlier, but that doesn't mean it doesn't feel good. So glad this man doesn't make me talk when I'm not feeling it.

He kisses my temple. "'M so glad you're okay."

"Me too, jayj. Me too." I mumble, putting my cheek against his chest.

"You need a real nap." He states, taking the water out of my hands. I hear it clinking on the nightstand. When he turns back to me, I'm already laying on his chest. He feels part of my lips move when I smile. Which makes him sigh of relief. "Gonna take one?" He asks, which I nod simultaneously. He chuckles lightly. "Then take one."

Which I do! 

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Okay guys, short chapter, I know. But! My writing has changed a lot, but this book, I'm now realizing, isn't that great. I promise to finish it off strong. I know I said there was gonna be a second book, but maybe that's just not it. We'll see how well this does. Thank you for the support of my very, very long break. This chapter was like 903 words. I know, that ain't a lot compared to everyone else, but give me a break. I barely remember the way I wrote this book before. The style is so different. I like it, but I think my skills aren't that increasingly well. I might write a quick one shot to see how it goes. I have a headache right now so we'll see how it goes! Thank you all again!