In the Web of Power ( feyd-rautha )

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"I have never understood where the line is drawn between sacrifice and self-slaughter"

Cassara:

I think about the idea of sacrifice a lot. How some people will sacrifice themselves for their loved ones or for the greater good of their people. Although i find it heroic in some way im quite jealous of them if im going to be honest. You see, i was sacrificed without any say in the matter, i was sacrificed before i was even born.

Na-Baron Feyd-Ruatha Harkonnen was born around 4 years before me and from my understanding was exhibiting signs and behaviors that were not normal for a regular harkonnen person. He was violent towards people beginning as a child and our world knew that he would be drastically more dangerous and violent as previous barons in his bloodline

When i say i was sacrificed before birth, i mean it was decided that i was destined to be the woman who would take down this violent creature Feyd-Ruatha. My father Neo is an Earl within the Harkonnen house and holds a very important role in their politics. I have 3 older brothers that are also destined for "greatness" however their greatness involves powerful political positions unlike mine which could lead to my death quite easily. My father for as long as i can remember as well as what ive been told had been plotting against this generation of Harkonnens to take over the ruling or at least completely change over who would be baron. So when it was decided that this psychotic 4 year old would overtake his brother in their position to heir to the throne my father and his colleagues conspired and created a precautionary measure. That precautionary measure was me. It was decided that my father should have another child, a daughter this time, that would be secretly trained to execute feyd-ruatha if need be. As years passed i was subjected to harsh treatment and training to sculpt me into the person i am today, an emotionless trained assassin.

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Tomorrow will be one of the biggest days in my life. It is na baron feyd-rauthas birthday and i will be one of this psychopaths birthday gift. My father's council ultimately made the decision that the time is now for their precautionary measure to go into action, meaning this is the day i've been training for my entire life.

If i'm going to be honest i'm not sure how i feel. I definitely believe that im excited for this. This won't be the first person that i've killed, however this is THE person i've been trained to kill my entire life. It's like this was all leading up to this big moment and like i said a part of me is excited. However, i can't help but feel slightly nervous which i do feel shame for. Feyd-Rautha is a notoriously unpredictable character. He's killed more servants than i think you could imagine. He just snaps sometimes and who ever is in the way faces his violence. Although i too have killed a substantial amount of people it was for the good of my father Earl Neo and his colleagues.

It's around 3 am when i wake up from a dream and cannot go back to bed. My bedroom does not look the same anymore, my belongings have been packed for me and are outside on the loading dock waiting to be picked up by the Harkonnen servants tomorrow. Only the decor that is built into the house remains. I get up and walk over to the large circular mirror in my cold dark bedroom. I have always been critical of my appearance but something lurks in my mind even heavier now. I will be given to feyd-ruatha as a birthday gift, as a replacement for his harpies, as a prospective wife, will he even find me attractive? The harkonnen women and servants are recognizable by their bald heads and that is something i do not have. My hair is very long reaching around past my waist falling around my hips, and is as dark as charcoal. I worry that my hair might be shaved due to their harsh beauty standards. The harkonnen house is also known for its height, i believe feyd is around 6 foot, and the women on average stand at about 5'6 or 5'7. I on the other hand do not stand that tall, i come in at around 5'1/5'2. If Feyd-Ruatha does not find me attractive enough for to be his prospective wife i won't be able to execute my mission, i might die then and there in his bedroom.

Tomorrow Feyd will be performing in the arena for his birthday. The plan is for me to great him in his quarters after he successfully defeats his opponents. All of my clothing is packed away except for my dress that will be worn tomorrow. I walk away from my mirror and turn to look at this beautiful dress that lays on my bed. It has been picked for me and is made entirely of black chiffon fabric. My chest is almost completely exposed but i feel ever so confident in the way i look in this dress that it does not matter. After all i am here to go through with one mission, get close enough to feyd to kill him, so i hope this dress gives him the idea of a warm welcome. 

It is quite late so i decide to slip back into my bed and try to go back to sleep. Tomorrow i will face the man i was born to kill, what could possibly go wrong?

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Cassaras dress:

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