Solar Dust

5.

01/16/30

I had a weird dream, I was floating around in a blank space but then there was this bright light blazing through me.

And the same voice repeating " you are losing who you are" 

Just left me in even more confusion, I think about my mom wanting me to befriend Makani for whatever personal gain she has. Maybe she really does want her in the battalion. I'm not sure but I'm going to play along and act like I'm with her.

Lost in deep thought I realize my alarm went off and I am going to be late. Today is already starting off on a bad note.

I put on my white button down shirt and my black skirt. Pulling my sweater over my head and throwing on my black boots, with my hair in a ponytail making sure it's neat.

I didn't even eat, I found my bag with my training clothes in it and I packed myself a snack for when I get hungry.

Rushing out of the apartments I speed walked to try to catch meditation before anyone notices I'm not there.

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I tried holding back my hunger but it was hard. The silent room was filled with my stomach making a noise, like a weird gurgling sound. Other people had noticed, and made snickers about it.

Finally, the instructor lined us up for Tea in the communal pavilion, I grabbed a cup of tea, unfortunately I didn't see any croissant sandwiches. Until they brought out more and everyone snatched them up leaving behind one. I reached out to grab it but another hand touched mine.

I jump back looking at the perpetrator who dared to take the last sandwich, it was Makani. She smiled and picked it up handing it to me. " I heard your stomach earlier it's ok you can have it" she says playfully

I look away unable to hold eye contact and take the sandwich saying a small thank you, turning around to find a seat she walks alongside with me.

" do you wanna sit together?" She asks kinda shyly, I think for a moment and tell her " sure"

We sit at one of the hydrangeas tables, every pavilion has a theme this one is flowers and mostly the furniture is inspired by the flowers.

I take small bites of my sandwich and sips of my tea, before it's time for combat training.
" how'd you do it?"

I look at her and my eyebrows knit together, " how'd I do what?" I ask

" how did you use your magic?"

" I don't know I just tried to think of an emotion and it just happened" I say shrugging my shoulders and focusing back on my meal.

" yeah but the beam you emitted from your palms was bright and blazing, that was a lot of emotions built behind it" she says while studying my face

I blink and realize that she is trying to understand where my magic erupts from, " I was just angry Mak, I don't know what else to say"

" Eliana look at me, using anger and hate makes your magic limited and only out of resentment. It's not a good source to power your magic from". She says giving me a look of concern

I face her and don't show any emotion " maybe I want it to be source of hate and anger, who cares if I hold resentment?"

I start to get to up because it's time for us to leave the pavilion, and I'm stopped by Makani grabbing my hand " I just know that going down that path is useless, having pure and calm intentions is better for you and your magic"

I slip my hand out of hers " ok since you know everything, why don't you show me then"

" fine by me, the clearing that we first partnered up, after lunch" she smiled satisfactorily like she accomplished something, strutting off she turned around " aren't you coming?"

I roll my eyes and walk along side with her. ' she's so annoying'

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It was after communal lunch, and I made my way to the clearing outside. Waiting for Mak to join, I stare at the trees and the sky, just basking in the nature.

Checking my phone I see the ranks from yesterday, and I end up ranking at 3. With Mak ranking at number 1. This is probably why my mom wants her to join.

I felt something hit my feet and it was note, I picked it up and read it.

Dear Eliana,

If you think blocking me and having a smartass mouth will stop what's coming for you, you got another thing coming. I enjoy watching you with your little girlfriend, I hope she can protect you when I come out to see you.

~ J.

I look around me frantically to see if anyone is there, it's says J. I don't know anyone named that. Why would they even hint at Mak being my girlfriend, we are barely even friends.

I was about to tear up the note when I hear Mak, " what's that?" She asks and snatches the note out of my hand.

" nothing give it back" she starts to read it and her eyes grow wide.

" who is J? And why are they coming for you? Are they stalking us?"

I don't know how to answer so I tell her what happened yesterday with the text, and she sighed heavily running her hands through her hair.

" so a psycho stalker is threatening you and wants you dead because..."

" I don't know why, they just got my number and won't stop harassing me. It looks like they go here or have someone snooping on me"

" I don't know everyone, but I will ask some of my friends if they know a J"

I daze out and stare into the dark forest. I feel someone sit next to me, " hey don't you think this person sounds a bit jealous? Like calling me your girlfriend? What's up with that?" She laugh a bit

It doesn't make me laugh though, I stay silent. " you know we can always tell the Justice"

I look at her like she's insane, " why? It won't help they are coming regardless and if they went through the security of The Academy what makes you think she can even help me?"

" I'm just saying she can help, you could give it a chan-"

I cut her off and say " no, I don't want to" She stays quiet, and stays in her thoughts.

" why don't we get started with your peaceful calm approach?" I try to change the topic and get up, starting to stretch.

" yeah let's start with breathing and meditating that's one of the key ways to having a calm mind" she says taking a seat on the grass and closing her eyes.

Rolling my eyes I get on the grass, and get into a sitting position. ' this is gonna take forever' I thought to myself.