Unexpected love- lauryn mccabe

15

Tw- mental health/ sh

I wake up wrapped in Lauryns arms still as she was still sound asleep as I slowly move out of her grip I kiss her on the forehead as I reach for my T-shirt we didn't do anything I just always slept in a bra.
I put on my T-shirt as i see Lauryn stir in her sleep she looked adorable
I smile to myself as I watch her eyes open
"Where are you going" she mumbles in a raspy morning voice
"No where gorgeous" I say sliding back next to her wrapping her in my arms as I play with her baby hairs
"Babe we have to get up" I say
"No five more minutes" Lauryn mumbles
"Baby look if you get up now I'll cuddle you later"
I say as I see her smirk Widen as she gets up she gets changed into her arsenal training kit as I do the same into the spare I had
"You look beautiful" Lauryn says to me as I smile
"So do you" I say as I open the door to go brush my teeth.
I do my skincare and hair before heading downstairs where Katie was making breakfast.
"Ready for your first training session Lauryn" Katie says handing us some breakfast as we both eat it
"Yeah nervous though" Lauryn admits
"You'll be fine I mean your not to far off 18" she smirks winking at me as I roll my eyes
"Not funny katie"I say taking a sip of orange juice
"I am funny actually" she says as I roll my eyes
"If you say so" I say rolling my eyes as we head into Katie's car.
We arrive at training as I see Leah and alessia talking as I smirk
"Less you've got something on your neck sweet cheeks" I smirk as Leah kicks me which I dodge slightly as alessia holds her neck
"Oo I wonder what that is"I smirk trying to wind up my older sister I was just in one of those moods and Leah looked annoyed
"Come on charli" Lauryn says as we walk into the building
"Stop annoying Leah I know she's your sister but remember this is football" Lauryn reminds me
"Yeah but it's funny" I defend
"For you maybe yes" Lauryn says as o sigh with a nod
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"Why are you being like this today" Leah says clearly frustrated as I've annoyed her again
"I'm not doing fuck all Leah" I defend as she sighs
"Just fucking stop it this is team bonding you don't need to act like a dick" she says raising her voice
"The only one being a dick is you Leah" I shout as she rolls her eyes
"You've just always gotta do it don't you fucking turn it back on me just fuck off charlotte" she shouts back as I scoff
"No Leah fucking lighten up I've been doing it to Katie all day and she's just laughing with it you only want me around to make it look like you look out for me you soon want me out when you want to fuck alessia" I say
"How dare you seriously fuck off Charlotte don't even bother talking to me no more your just an attention seeker and who does all this for mums attention all the time" she says as I feel my heart drop I see regret in her eyes I've been struggling with mental health enough already
"Shit I totally forgot it was one of your outbursts char please I'm so sorry" she says as she knew I had adhd she goes to hug me as I push her away
"You made yourself perfectly clear you don't want anything to do with me not my problem" I say as I walk off I blink the tears away as I walk into the relax room where i saw Lauryn Beth Viv and Katie talking as I walk over to them Lauryn wraps her arms around me as I tried my best to hold the tears back from what Leah said.
"Woah charli you okay" Katie asks as I nod
"Come here kid" she says as I hug her tightly I felt the tears roll down my cheek as Beth and Viv both hug me before giving me some space
"Come on let's go somewhere where you can talk to us" Katie and Lauryn Both say as I wipe the tears and I walk out the relax room where I see Leah
"Char-" she starts
"Fuck off" I say pushing past her as Lauryn gives Leah a sympathetic smile.
"What happened kid" Katie asks as we walked into the changing rooms
I explain everything that happens as Lauryn hugs me tightly.
"Aw char" Katie says rubbing my back as I hold my head in my hands
"Do you wanna stay at mine tonight" she says as Katie nods
"No it's fine I need to face Leah she is my sister after all" I say with a sigh I just wanted to be alone
"Do you want me to drop you home then bud" Katie asks as I nod she wraps her arms around me as I grab my stuff

Katie dropped me home as I walk straight to my bedroom I lay on my bed as my pillow was now covered in tears I open my bedside table draw as I make sure my doors locked I take out the blade I promised I wouldn't use again I take a deep breath as I cut my ribs where people wouldn't see
I look at the blood as I sigh I start crying more as I put the blade away I move even though I was sore I clean the cuts as I sigh Leah didn't want me here I text Lauryn and she asks me to come over and said to  stay for a few nights and told me she'd be back at hers ina bout 2 hours but Katie's said to come over now I grab my training stuff and some other clothes as I grab my phone I put it in a bag and my phone in my pocket as I walk out the house Leah noticed and tried to stop me as I just pushed past her I walk to Katie's as she pulls me into a hug she touches my side as I wince she looked at me shocked as she noticed why
"Oh char please tell me you haven't" she says as tears flow from my eyes
"I'm so sorry" I say
She bangadaged me up and swears to not say nothing
"Conti cup final tomorrow how you feeling" Katie asks
"Nervous but buzzing" I say as Lauryn walks in
"You okay babe" she says
"Yeah corse" I say
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