Death Isn't The End Of Me

Chapter 4 - Kiss

"Competiton?" Erik questioned. Right, He wouldn't know it and I'll have to tell him, since I mentioned it, already. "A competition to be more like Marlon. father started this." I spoke unwillingly, looking lesser than my brother was never my plan but here I am, telling a guy that my brother is the perfect man and I'm not. "Marlon was more close to Mr.Anderson that any of you, that must be the only reason he wanted you to become like him." He spoke silently holding my hand and trust me, for a second I felt good. "Stop being so nice to me, and just tell me what should I do now?" Yes, He should stop being nice to me because He is gay, for me. Someone, doing so much for me is new and..and....I might...I might start to l- no it's a huge word. Love is a huge word. "Honestly? Let's go to your sister because we both know she's not a good reader, she may miss out the important work, let's help her." On the second thought, He's good to everyone. He is doing this because Marlon told him, he helped me and now he is ready to help my sister, why are Anderson's so fucked up? I nodded and we walked towards my house, we entered and kins was sitting there with Grandma, she glanced at us. Erik passed her a small smile and entered Sia's room.

- KINSELY's POV

Lenny entered the room with Erik, oh. Well, they both are kind of weird, yes weird. I don't know about Erik but my brother definitely hates Erik, I stood up and sneakingly walked behind them, they entered cass's room. I pressed my ear on the door, trying to hear all the conversation that was going inside but honestly all I could hear was Let us help gosh they all are so so bad! Why am I the only who's always left out, my curiosity won and I entered the room, All eyes on me. "Please" I pleaded because somehow, I knew this was the only way they'll tell me what's going on, For them I'm still a child, but I deserve to atleast be added in conversations, Yes. I deserve that! "Can I?" What do I expect? uh well, currently they are glaring so I suppose they are going to throw me out but my eyes darted towards Erik and gosh, Mr.E will stand up for me, I know it. I can feel it. "It's nothing, Kins." Lenny spoke immediately, sure he felt it too, the aura of Erik. "I requested, Didn't I?" Mr. E is avoiding my eyes, He's been here, in the dark and he fucking wants to help me right now and he will. "Sure you did, but it's not important, kins." Cass spoke, I let out a sigh and sat down on the chair "So, you trust him more than me?" I pointed out and this will trigger them, I know it, being the youngest wasn't my choice but Here I am, they treat me like nothing but a child but I faced it too, right? Father dying, all those shits and...Marlon running away, I was there too and they think I wasn't, like I passed that freaking phase like a goddamn child. "Thats not it, if we do tell you, can you help us?" Erik stated before Lenny or Cass even got the chance, I suppose it triggered him more than it triggered my siblings. "I take after my father." I say, not the best thing to say though because the tension only increased after that. I hear Cass sigh and she shoves a note in my hand, from the look in guys eyes, I suppose I'm the first one to know about it after Cass of course. File 222. . . The last case. Huh Its all coming back, isn't it? "I know what we have to find next" Their eyes widen, am I suprised by this reaction? No, not even a little bit. The baby in their eyes knowing about it before they do is quite humiliating now that I think about it. "speak it, please." Mr.E says and on the honest note, he's the only who's pride hasn't been hurt. . .yet.
"Its the last case, have you gone through the file? If you have, there's a number at the end of the file, I must say if you guys are searching for numbers, it's one of the important ones." I spoke, ofcourse it's important. It was father's last file, the number is...is...around 37. "on the second thought, don't read it. Its 37. Father was threatened, right? I saw the tension between you guys after he started getting threatened." I did not only see the tension but the competition. Marlon never stays quiet about something, acting like a man was very stupid. If only father was in a bad mood, we all would have had a saddening dinner or maybe wouldn't have had it at all. "write it down" Galen stated, write what down? I missed things, sad. "Uh, so we have 22237" and what's next? Dad told me. He did.

- ONE YEAR AGO

"dad, It doesn't make sense." and I'm technically not wrong, it actually doesn't make sense why am I the one who's left out? Okay, I know I'm everyone's favourite but...I'm not their favourite. "I know, kins but what can I do?" Dad say with a sigh, he said it all wrong. It should've been what I can't do? Because lon won't go against dad at all cost! I rolled my eyes - which is a disrespectful way to show sadness - and walked away. I jumped in my bed and wondered the why because why am I here if my siblings can't accept me. Its always Cass - I don't hate her - but why? Lonnie wants Cass but so do Lenny. And I'm here, empty handed, with no one.

Knock

Its father, he never knocks more than once "dad, I can't." I say, which is true, I can't face him right now, it makes me look stupid but somehow I knew it that giving a response to him was only an acceptance in his eyes and so I heard the door open. "You know, I prefer you over three of them kins." another lie. He doesn't, why would he? A perfect son, Marlon who knows father better than all of us. A dreamy daughter, Cassia who's with no doubt competitive because she's sure she'll win at any cost. A lip-reader boy, Galen who - as the name suggests - can read lips and that's very beneficial in our father's profession and there I am. Kinsley, who's nothing but a child. When I was younger, yes, younger than this I used to believe me and Marlon were father's favourite, since we've been named after his origin, British. Cass and Lenny were named after mother's origin, Greek. "How can I make you believe?" Dad questioned as the silence was enough for him to know what I was thinking "Tell me something only Marlon knows." I knew I wanted this, at all cost. If I want to be special, I must have what it takes to be that, secrets. I swear I heard my father scoff for the first time but he let out a chuckle soon enough to hide that "My last case is very important and so is the file. . .
Do you know I want to visit watsons bay."

- Present

The fuck, I let out a gasp even before I knew it. "what's wrong?" Cass asked, her voice showing how concerned she was. Fuck, Fuck. "watsons bay." was the only thing I was able to say. Cass eyes narrowed for a brief second and she collapsed on the bed. "Wastons bay, 22237?" Erik questioned, because it didn't make sense. Well, technically 22237 didn't. But 37 did. "watsons bay, 37 cove street." Cass finished, of course she knew. “what about it?” Lenny asked and oh god, everything's about it. “Marlon told me that we own 37 cove street, I thought..I thought he was joking.” Cass spoke in one breath, oh dear lord, it's effecting her more than it's effecting me. “We are not sure, okay? So we can't just go there” That's what Erik said but we are sure, atleast me and Cass are. Before Anyone could say anything else, cass gestured us to leave the room and so we did. I went away to lay down in my room, Erik and Galen left for a walk and...and we don't know what we are going to do. I sat straight up in my bed and thought, what would Lonnie do? If he was here, what would he do? he loved puzzles and here it is, another bomb he dropped. I don't understand why are we even finding him - i love him - but he ran away on his own will. It makes me look so stupid that we are literally ruining his plan. well, why would he leave clues for you then? The stupid inner voice asked and I don't know okay, but I bet it will be something like ‘they can't last a day without me, they'll eventually need to find me’ oh god, I can even hear the taunt in his words. I do wonder if things would've been different if Lonnie never ran away, if he just... just stayed.

For the past fifteen minutes all I thought was about lon but I finally decided to shove all the thoughts back inside and get some fresh air. I opened my window and my eyes landed on a tree, just under it sat my sibling...not just sat but pinned. they are.... They're fucking kissing.

Ps: Hello! Its my first note with all of you, isn't it? (I'm well aware that only five people read my story regularly but anyways) Just wanted to clarify that 37 Cove st. exists in real life and has been sold LONG AGO. I apologize for adding real life places in the book, but here goes nothing.