Wizard x GingerBrave: Cookie Run Kingdom Ship Thing

GingerBrave Angst

A/N not a part of the story, just a Drabble I made

TW for suicide mention, and a lot of negative self talk

GingerBrave muttered as he combed through his hair with his fingers.He had woken up in the middle of the night, and wasn't able to make himself fall asleep. He was alone. Alone in his room, with no one around him. GingerBrave hated being alone. He felt so restless and uneasy. He could feel the intrusive thoughts weeding through his mind. He had a horrible nightmare, flashbacks to when Dozer..

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Brave shuddered as the mental image of Dozer being killed in front of him flashed in his mind. He wished he could forget, he wanted to forget everything. Sometimes the pain of having to live outweighed anything good that came from it. It was so much work, and he was just so tired. He was the jolly, therapist cookie for everyone in the kingdom. Everyone relied on him for support, but who could he rely on? Deep down, underneath all the jokes and optimism, Brave had the weakest confidence out of all the cookies. Sometimes he couldn't even look in the mirror. To himself, he was disgusting, basic, and dumb. He'd been told so, behind his back and to his face. He wasn't worthy of the love he got, he wasn't even worthy to live! He held back tears as he put his head in his hands. His throat hurt from stifling sobs, and he dug his fingers into his hair, ripping pieces out.
Amidst his misery, he didn't notice the door creak open and a cookie walk through. GingerBrave felt arms wrap around him and someone peck him on the neck. Brave whipped around suddenly and saw Wizard standing behind him. By this point, any hope of stopping the tears from flowing down his face was long gone. He let out a sob and clung to Wizard.
"Shh, it's ok. I'm here." Wizard whispered to the crying cookie. GingerBrave didn't have the heart to respond, and continued his somber pity party in Wizards arms. After ten or so minutes, Brave had managed to calm down. He said next to Wizard, his legs hanging off the side of the bed as Wizard had his arms around his neck.

BRAVES POV

"Brave?" He asked. I scoffed and turned my head away. I really didn't feel like talking about my feelings. Wizard gently put his hand on my cheek and turned my head back to face him. Blush coated my cheeks. I couldn't help it, Wizard was just so carelessly charismatic. 'Not like I could relate, He's levels above me. I don't deserve someone so charming and handsome...' I thought bitterly to myself. Wizard pulled down his scarf and gave me a small smile. "Hey, wanna talk about it?" He asked. I stayed still, not responding. Wizard moved my hair out of my face and stared at me, waiting. I felt tears well in my eyes again as I choked out a response.
"I don't deserve this..." I said, my voice breaking. Wizard wiped my eye with his thumb.
"You don't deserve what?" He asked me. At this point, I lost my composure all over again.
"I don't deserve anything! I don't deserve you, I don't deserve Strawberry, I don't deserve to have so many amazing, talented people in my life!" I paused and wiped my eyes, looking down at the ground. "I should just die, or something." I whispered.
I could feel Wizard go stiff beside me, and I suddenly felt him throw himself onto me. "Brave..." he whispered. I could tell he was crying now too. "Brave, you're the most wonderful, beautiful person I've met. There's reasons why me, and everyone in the kingdom loves you." He kissed me on the cheek and made me look him in the eye. "I love how you treat me so well, I love how much you care, I love how well you know me, I love your spontaneous gifts, I love the sugar freckles you have, I love your style, I love the way you smile whenever I hug you," Wizard rambled. I was taken aback, I never really thought that Wizard cared so much. Wizard nuzzled his face into my neck, and wrapped his legs around my torso. "Please don't leave me." He whispered.
I smiled and hugged him. "I would never."